lost and alone

everywhere i go

  since I have been adopted I haven't seen my dad for a while now he is back and he is determined to get rid of me once and for all.

so here is what happened I was on the laptop that Penelope and Theo bought me for my birthday, I was on Facebook checking my profile for things but I guess I didn't delete my dad as a friend because he saw that I was on and texted me

dad's text: I will find you you can't get away from me that easily no matter how far you run or where you go I will find you as far as I am concerned you will never be safe so be ready cuz we will meet again and when we do your life will finally end

after I read it I slammed my laptop shut and ran to Penelope and told her she said it was probably just a scam and that  some one was playing a trick on me and that I shouldn't worry to much about it but I can't help but worry cuz I know that was my dad and that text was not a trick it was a threat and it scared the shit out of me

but what hurt me the most was that Penelope didn't believe me I mean isn't she supposed to believe me I mean she Is my adopted mother for god sakes why doesn't she believe me

I ran up to my room too and cried into my pillow no one understands this isn't a joke if he gets his hands on me I will die I was screaming and scratching at my pillow until I fell asleep

in my dream I was running I was running then I got stuck and suddenly I was in chains I a dark creepy basement I was screaming for help but it felt like I was alone then I heard him he was coming down the stairs and he had a knife in his hand and a creepy smile was plastered across his face I started to cry and scream and try to break free from the chains but it was no use he was getting closer my breaths became more and more hitched with every step he took closer to me I was crying and the suddenly he started to scrape the knife across my leg and huge drips of blood were coming down my leg I was screaming in pain and crying for help but he stopped and said

no one can hear you

then I felt my heart slip into my stomach I was alone and I was going to die I could tell it was over then he chopped of my leg the pain felt so real then black

I woke up screaming and crying I knew I was in trouble I knew that I was going to die it was just a matter of time he is coming for me and he won't stop until I am dead

so I ran down the stairs to the door locked it and hid under the table and fell asleep crying why is my life so fucked up why me why did I have to be the daughter of a crazed  psycho murder why me i was so scared i kept one eye open all night not literally but you get the idea.

I woke up the next morning before everyone else I really wasn't in the mood for explaining why I fell asleep under the table and I really wasn't  in the mood for going to school either so I just went back to my room but not before I got a thermometer and put it in some hot water and into my mouth

then I went back into my room and shortly after Penelope walked in to try to get me up for school the she looked at me and said

Penelope: what's wrong honey

she took the thermometer out of my mouth and looked at it then me then it and this continued for about five minutes then she left the room so I just went back to sleep

about 3 hours later she came in with a bowl of soup and told me to eat up and then she left I did as I was told but then I got a text so I picked it up thinking it was my friend but it was him

dad's text: be ready cuz I am coming

after I read the text I really felt ill so I got out of bed and ran to the bathroom and got sick after I got out of the bathroom I went back to my bed and got some sleep because I am pretty sure I would need it

after I got up I started to cry out of nowhere I knew Penelope was gone so I decided to go for a walk, I grabbed a sweater and walked out the house

I walked until I came to a park I walked to the swing set and I started to swing very slowly tho then I looked up and he was right in front of me I almost jumped 3 feet in the air he started to walk closer to me I jumped of the swing and backed away he spoke

Lilly's dad: come on Lilly can't even go see my daughter without her backing away from me

I didn't answer I just looked at him with a look of anger and horror all the memories started to flood back to me all those memories that I wish I could forget but to my disappointment are seared into my brain

I snapped back to reality and he was closer to me I started to run but he had to men in black suits and shades grab me they held still and he came closer I was screaming

you better stay away from me I don't want anything to do with you so why don't you just fuck off

he slapped me I could feel my cheek turning red a tear fell down it he wiped it away and started to speak

Lilly's dad: I only want to make amends

I looked at him and started to scream

make amends? make amends? how can you make amends when you have shed so much blood so many tears I have cried because of what you did and you say you want to make amends you can never make amends because I don't want anything to do with you as far as I am concerned I want you dead

he kneed me in the stomach and started kicking me then he said that he would see me again and left me laying  on the ground holding my stomach in so much pain

I managed to get up and wobble home  I could feel the tears welling up inside me I didn't know what to do I was just so scared I walked up the stairs and got into my bed I cried and cried the last words he said to me kept repeating in my mind "we will meet again" I cried some more and then finally fell asleep I just need to forget I needed to sleep I like anyway you forget all the pain that you have to go through for a while I ahead one last tear and then I was out