To my dear girlfriend

Sometimes we dont see eye to eye

Kinsey,

I know that this weekend has been rough on you because it sure was super rough on me. I just want to tell you what has been on my mind since that night. That night when you thought I was drunk was all a big exaggeration by the one and only asshole himself, tony. I will admit I did have a few sips of Niki's beer and a little bit of some other girls drink and that's all. Nothing more. I'm really sorry I got angry with you and everything. When I heard everything that was said to me it really hurt me bad. Tony was just trying to get you worried even more then you were. I wasnt in harms way at all because Destanee was behind the wheel and she was perfectly fine. I dont know what you were doing at the time because I wasnt with you but I wished I was. I was so angry at the world that I was ready to pick up a cig and a can and just let go of everything. But I didnt. You know why I didnt? Because I love you to much and I know that you would worry even more for me if I started drinking more and smoking more. I havent told you this but I smoke when i am extremely stressed. I have been smoking a little more lately because.....I dont want to tell you untill I go to the doctors and find out if its true or not. Just know that I love you to the moon and back, forever and ever and again. Never forget that. I stopped doing so much things that have gotten me away from all the pain because I found a new thing to keep me living. Kissing you give me the will power to stay away from the blade and pills. Sleeping next to you when you stay over give me the power to wake up in the morning with a smile on my face. Yes I can get pissed at you but not for long. We need to get over this fight and rough spots were are having because it is tearing me up inside and I know it is worse for you. I love you Kinsey <3 take care 

-Veronica