Homes places we've grown.

Do we live in a beautiful world?

  I'm not at all who I was 17 years ago. I mean I don't think I am at least.

    I had a great childhood. Honestly I didn't have much to complain about. I had a roof under my head. I had two older amazing brothers and sisters. And my parents more importantly. I didn't have a huge family but I felt like I had one. My mom was an anesthetic nurse while my dad worked at an oil company.  My older sister Andrea was my mother when my mom worked her twelve hour shifts and especially was when she was on call. My older brother Sam was my dad when my dad worked late nights and even holidays once and a while. Let's just say I didn't have any guy friends in elementary that my brother didn't approve of.
      The only problem was every year my dad held this party at his job where their was good drinks and music and I always begged my parents to take me but they never could because it was always a school night for me since it was a Thursday night and neither my parents worked the next day. My older sister and my brother always got to go because they were seniors so they were "more mature". Well at least Andrea was. Unfortunately for me I was forced to stay with my uncle Todd. He was my dads brother. But I knew he never liked me. Probably because he was a drug addict and was still sort of in rehab. He barely kept an eye on me and when he did and I was doing something I wasn't suppose to be doing, he let me know.
     It was a Thursday night. The night of my dads party. "Mom I promise if you take me I won't be tired tomorrow morning!!! I'll put your coffee into my cereal instead of milk so then I won't fall asleep!!! Please!!" I begged. "Angie you say that every year and even without going your still half asleep in the car when dad brings you to school. Just a couple more years and I promise you can go." She said smiling. I went upstairs into Andrea's room. I knocked. "Come on" she said. "I'll pay you all my m&ms if you sneak me into your car. I promise. I won't even say hi to you really loud anymore when you come home past 12 on school nights." I said. She walked up to me and kneeled down. "Ang, you know I can't do that. Even if I really thought I could I couldn't. Dad would get in trouble too because your underage nevermind mom. Tomorrow after school I'll take you for ice cream. Me and you. I promise." She said. "What if I give you two bags of m&ms?"I asked completely ignoring her bargain. " where'd you get that other bag? Uncle Todd gave each of us one." She said. "I thought Sam doesn't like m&ms." I lied. "Angie!" She said laughing. She sighed. "Fine."
     The party was awesome. Despite hiding from my parents. I hid in the bathroom while Andrea would sneak in pizza slices and even gave me the six pack of sprites. It didn't sound like a lot of fun but it was for an 8 year old who rarely got invited to birthday parties.
   I was sitting on the floor munching away on my pizza when the fire alarm went off. I jumped up and peeked my head out of the door. I could smell smoke but I couldn't see anything other than people running around screaming. I was confused as to why nobody was leaving. Then I heard my mom calling out for my sister. "ANDREA!!!! ANDREA WHERE ARE YOU???" She screamed. I watched her run up to people asking. "Have you seen Andrea???? She was just here a second ago!!" She said. I figured she was looking for me but I didn't wanna get caught so I snuck out to the emergency exit. The one that nobody was using still for whatever reason. I then realized everyone wasn't leaving because they were looking for my sister. Eventually I saw everyone leave outside the other exit but still no sign of my family. Not even my dad. I ran into the party room and then I could see  through the window on the door leading to the factory. Just flames everywhere. And I mean everywhere. I wanted to go in so bad. I did. I knew my family was in there looking for Andrea and then eventually would be looking for me. But something told me I wouldn't come out of there once I was in. As I was standing there debating my fate, someone grabbed me from behind. The firemen arrived. "MY MOMMY AND MY DADDY ARE IN THERE!!!" I was kicking and screaming doing literally everything I could to try and get out of their arms. But nothing worked.
   About an hour later, I was still sitting in the fire marshalls car. My uncle showed up and a fireman along with a police officer showed up, sat in the car with me and told me. My family didn't make it.