Everything has changed

First days are always fun

Once upon in a place far far way known to most people as New York there lived a girl. If you couldn't already tell that girl is me and my names Roxanne. See I was just a normal girl. Sixteen years old and obsessed with the idea of perfection, the only thing is that I'm not normal on the inside.

See two years ago my life changed. It changed in that way that everyone's does. To some people it happens more than once and the lucky ones only a few times. It changed in the way that no matter what even if you wanted to you can't go back to the way you were before this event.

I came home from school that day opening the door to my whole family standing in the kitchen. My grandparents, aunt, uncle , cousin and more were standing there. I could tell something was v but it was a certain kinda silent. The kinda that made you want to run and hide and curl up in a ball and cry in the dark.

"Roxanne. We have something to tell you, Jacob passed today.", my mom and dad said while facing me and my little sister.

It took about five seconds for me to process the newly discovered information I was hearing. Those five small seconds felt like a life time, a blur, a big ball of confusion. How could Jacob be dead? How could Jacob, MY big brother be gone forever. My first best friend before everyone else.

The after shock was worse though. Here's what I did about it, I cried and cried and cried. If you saw me within a week of the incident, I had a tissue in hand and that wasn't a question about it.

I spent that whole night running through memories in my head of us, just us. It almost felt real before the reality came crashing back in.

Don't even get me started on the funeral. Hundreds of people lined up, when I didn't even know most of them.

It's funny how once your dead people care, and only when your gone do they care. It's actually kinda sick.

The other thing was that all these people would give me hugs and say things like, "Stay strong" and " You can get through this, it will be okay.",let me tell you that is the worst thing you can say to me. Yeah it's going to be okay because it's not happening to you! It's not going to be okay. It's going to be a variation of okay, a broken variation at best.

But that was then and here's now so I don't want to be throwing a pity party for myself. Everyone goes through crap and life's not a competition of whose problems are the worst.

Little did I know that today was going to be another one of those life changing days, but in a good way. Plus who would of guessed it would start with a,

Beep

Beep

Beep

Oh shut up stupid alarm. Nobody likes you, you should just go home.

Unfortunately dragging myself out of bed was the only option. You know being late for your first day of school in a whole new city would kinda suck.

Roxy you can do it. Only one more year of high school and you'll be free.

Rox since when have you talked to yourself? Oh crap I need to stop.

You know maybe I should have listened to my mom when she said to pick out what to wear last night... Well to late for that.

Do you know what it's like picking out something to wear for the first day of school for a high school you've never set foot in? Scary. You dint want to be to dressy and look like you were trying to hard but in the contour you don't want to show up looking like a bum.

After about five minutes of looking through my closet I settled on some short light waned jean shorts and a floral tank top with special layered scoop cuts along the bottom. Perfect since it's currently about a billion degrees this should be perfect.

I grab a granola bar and head to my car. It's a bright red jeep, that hold all my pride. I had to save up for two whole years for that baby, and when I still didn't have enough money my parents chipped in as a birthday present.

I glanced at the dashboard clock to see that it was already 7:15 crap! The first bell rang at 7:25 and I was still ten minutes away and had no clue what my schedule is and where the classes are.

By the time I got to the office and had my schedule the late bell already rang. Plus I still had to go to my locker, well this is just peachy. Isn't it?

I was walking quickly, oh fine maybe I was running with my books in hand when,

Smack

I ran straight into a wall. Wait it wasn't a wall, walls can't just come out of no where. Stupid stupid me.

"Oh I'm so sorry about that.", oh yeah I'm still on the ground I probably look pretty dumb right now.

I look up to see two beautiful green eyes watching me intently. I look at the rest of him and dayyumm is he hot. With light brown mess hair that he just ran his hands through and a perfectly defined face, and well...the rest was perfection as well.

He held out a hand and I took it still looking at him. I probably look like a freak right now.