She Saved Me...

Before...

Some of you may not care but I do. I was the same way because I never thought that someones story about themselves would change my life. In fact none of them did except when they said give someone a chance.

I was always the girl who never gave anyone a chance. I didn't have friends anymore because of that. So I started self harming again. When I started back doing it all of my old problems came back to me and pushed me.under. I'm talking about trust issues, happy memories made me sad, hiding myself from others, not talking to people, avoiding people who try to be friends, and getting mentally darker.

I would make people hate me and of course I didn't care. They were nothing to me because most of them would tell me to get a life or kill myself and yes I was the dumb one to even do listen to them.

People still to this day tell me those things and I still listen to them. Every person that tells me that I add 5 or more cuts. The most I've ever added at one time over one person was 32 cuts. I always thought it would make me stronger because I had the guts to do something they couldn't.

I broke up with my boyfriend and pushed him away when I started cutting. When he found out why he wanted to stay but I told him to get the f**k out of my life. He wasn't the reason why. I loved him but he wasn't the one for me.