Since Fifth Grade

Why so far away

As i walked up to him i sat down and looked up at him. "so what did u wanna talk about". He looked at me and said "why are u so far away" he touched my chin with his finger I looked down and smiled I didn't say anything i looked up at him and studied his facial features I shrugged my shoulders. "I wanna talk about us what we talked about earlier". At this point I was looking out over at the lake thinking about what we talked about, I promised to tell him weather or not i wanted to talk to him. I looked back at him he looked nervous it was cute how nervous he was over me, me of all things."I guess we can" he grabbed my face and turned it towards his "I want to hear u say yes"
"Yes damn shiiiit" he let go and I continued to look over the lake "why is your leg shaking" "my leg shakes when I'm in tense situations " it dose that on its own I can't stop it" I looked at him "you have some pretty lips" I grinned and turned the other way so my back was facing him instead of the bench he moved my shoulder back so I was sitting straight again he leaned forward which made me look at him"can I kiss u" I didn't say anything I didn't want to say anything I just looked at him and rolled my eyes. "Can I kiss you" he said again still looking at him he quickly laid a kiss on my lips "can i kiss you" he repeated again "you already did" i said as i turned away from him "no i want you to kiss me back" he said as he turned my face towards his agian i was nervous i never kissed anyone before i never been this close to anyone before i had so many thoughts running through my head he kissed me agian i didn't know what to do so i moved my mouth i guess i was so confused i didn't know what to do so i just moved my mouth trying to get in sync with his until our teeth hit each others he pulled away i wiped my mouth and laughed he just looked at me like i was the only thing on his mind like he was in love my leg started to shake agian he noticed "come here" he pulled me on to his lap he started kissing my face and tried to give me a hickey i pulled him closer the tingling sensation i felt on my neck was pleasing but he had to stop i have 3 brothers and 2 male cuzens at the house if i came home with a hickey thats my ass "you gone give me a hickey" he pulled away i got off his lap and pulled my phone out my back pack to see my neck "let me see" he turned me towards him "nah u straight"........

I don't want to continue this story because me and him are no longer together or talking because he said I was taking to long to go out with him I didn't show emotions and shiii but I been through a lot so showing emotions is hard for me he is now going with my ex best friend wow right but whatever they always come crawling back so I'm just waiting to get that call or txt like "baby I'm sorry" lol but it's straight he missed out on a real ass chick sooo his lost thanks guys😘