lost and alone

run!

after Johnny and Ricky had left Victoria took her hand of my mouth and gave me a look mentally telling me that we needed to keep moving so as Victoria got up I did the same we walked very slowly until we couldn't hear Johnny or Ricky anymore and we ran and ran I was panting and breathing heavily I knew what kind of trouble we were in bit I didn't understand why those guys would not give up I turned to Vicky and said

Lilly: Vicky where are we going to go I mean if they won't stop chasing us how will we ever be safe how will we ever be able to live our lives?

she turned to me with a serious face and I knew what it meant I knew what she was trying to tell me I kept moving bit I was worried what if  I am never going to live my life like I intended? what if I will never be able to settle down and start a family I know I want to because if I do I will never forget all the things that have happened to me in the past I looked up and Victoria stopped mid in her tracks causing me to bump into her and we both fell to the ground she got up and helped me up and said

Victoria: Lilly I think we should go our separate ways, it's me there after and I just don't feel right dragging you into my problems

I just stood there and thought about it I knew she was right but I mean come on what if they catch her what if she is in trouble and I'm not there to help her what if they kill her

Victoria: they won't kill me

she read my mind I guess I forgot she could do that anyways I looked up feeling guilty about the answer that I was going to give her but I knew that I would only way her down if I stayed with her so i said

Lilly: your right I I I mean I am a very slow person I would only slow you down

she looked up at me and said

Victoria: no you are not you are a very brave  sweet and kind hearted girl and if you and I go any further together thus world will loose the beast person that had ever lived

I looked at her and I knew that it was time to let her leave I hugged her for a very long Time before she left and let her be on her way. after she was gone I had saw Johnny and Ricky pass right by me not even noticing that I was there and it was true they were only after her I turned to walk away because I had no purpose ever being in her situation in the first place.

so I walked in the opposite direction alone because I knew that I would always be alone in life eternally doomed to walk the earth alone..........................

I couldn't finish my thought because I came to another town I can't tell you the name of it because it's kinda hard to pronounce but trust me when  i say it was like something out of a storybook all the houses where lined up perfectly there were no dumpsters it was like trash didn't even exist

to good to be true right well yes it was all the people are nuts for example you brush up against there lawn and move the grass an inch they go nuts they come out of there house with knifes and scream I should know it happened to me so I ran right out of that town. I spent the night on the Side of the road and a police officer saw me and polled over.

officer jane: sweetie do you have a place to stay?

I looked at her with a face of sincerity and said

Lilly: no

she was shocked that she found me on the side of the road with nowhere to go so she got out of her car and opened the passenger seat door and told me to get in I did as she instructed and we drove off.

officer Jane: so why were you on the side of the road?

she asked and I just ignored her I mean I didn't internationally ignore her I was in such deep thought that I didn't know that we were having a conversation I mean it was kinda secret so secret that I didn't know about it anyway I feel asleep and that was the end of that