After Mockingjay: Our real forever

Chapter 1

For days I have sat in this chair. Only moving when I need to go to the toilet. Greasy Sae comes and cooks for me and makes me eat it. Sometimes she brings her granddaughter but usually she comes alone. For some reason she is unlike everyone else. She won't give up on me. I'm not worth anything yet she keeps coming back. The only thing I am capible of doing is staring at a wall. I can't concentrate. I am damaged beyond repair. My mind always wanders and ends up in the same place. No where. I often see him in his house and going out of Victors Village, probably to the bakery. How much I want to be embraced in to his warmth. But he hates me. The capitol ruined our lives. I often wimper his name hoping he will hear me but I know he won't. I need him. But he is fine on his own. Will my life ever be right? I have often tried to take my life but can never let myself do it. Theres still a spark in me. A spark of hope. That everything is going to be okay. But is it? Am I dreaming. This is not a fairytale. I will never get my happy ever after. It's only a dream. 

-2 WEEKS LATER-

I wake up to the door slamming.

"Morning Sae.." I begin yawning before looking up. Haymitch. Well this is his first visit in a while "Oh its you" I put a blank expression on my face. I am not happy to see him. 

"Nice to see you too sweetheart" He scoffs 

"What do you want?" I say coldly

"For you to get off your lazy butt and do something! I can't stand it anymore! KATNISS YOU HAVE SURVIVED TWO HUNGER GAMES AND A REBELLION AND NOW YOU CAN;T STAND UP. YOUR SEVENTEEN NOT RETIRED? YOU HAVE A LIFE TO LIVE AND I SUGGEST YOU LIVE IT! I KNOW HOW THE GAMES HAVE MESSED WITH YOU IVE BEEN THERE DONE THAT BUT YOU SEEM TO THINK ITS ONLY YOU WHO HAS BEEN EFFECTED. I OFTEN FIND THE BOY IN THE BAKERY CRYING. DO YOU EVER THINK OF HOW MUCH HE HAS BEEN THROUGH? HIS LIFE HAS NEVER BEEN GOOD AND YOU DON'T EVEN TRY AND HELP HIM!" I am taken back. Where did that come from?

"Im guessing what your saying is I am selfish, heartless, hopeless, unwanted, unworth-"

"No I'm telling you to be happy, the games are gone. Your life is your own why arent you out there living it?" He says more calmly. I don't awnser so he just walks out. Another person giving up on me. But he has a point. The games are over yes they left a scar but scars heal over time. They arent signs of weakness they are signs of being strong and I have been through so much, to much, to give up now.

Suddenly my eyes become alert. My surroundings become more clear and my head isn't so muddled. I can fix myself. Hope is the only thing stronger than fear. I get up and clean the house. I come to Prim's room. A lone tear slips my eye. No Katniss. Strong. Crying isn't going to bring her back. She's gone and she would want you too live a happy life. I enter the room. The aroma reminds me of her the way everything is laid out reminds me of her. I end up on the floor crying. Probably my first emotion since I got back.

I must have fallen asleep because when I wake im in my actual bed. Not in a wooden chair. Who moved me? I get up and put on my hunting clothes. Hunting always cheered me up. Maybe it still does. I run down to the fence and on my instinct I listen for the humming of the wires but I know none will come because Paylor took it out. The districts are free. I slip under the fence in my usual spot and jog down to the tree where I keep my stash of arrows and bow. I hear some birds chirping and spot a mockingjay. I do Rue's whistle and all the mockingjays come to life, mimicing me. A smile spreads across my face. So this is what freedom feels like. 

I catch a deer three fish and four birds. I have enough money to buy expensive meat but it doesnt taste right to me. I will always be a seam girl rich or not. As I walk through town I realise there is something still missing. Something to the puzzle. One more peice I need. I keep walking and stop outside the bakery realising where that missing peice is. Peeta. I need my Peeta back.