ethereal ☆ nct doyoung ✓

five

(listen to the song I've linked)

We had our dinner and it was pretty much silent.

My eyes were a bit tired and I feel a little sleepy. We had fun today until he ruined a moment.

Everything was okay but since he doesn't feel the same way, it's suddenly not. Now, everything feels wrong.

We were walking outside, heading to our houses. Until he suggested,

"You seem a bit tired. How about you stay in my house for the night?" This is great, I guess.

"Sure, thanks for the offer." I try my best to smile genuinely but I just can't.

Doyoung, you literally made me feel emotional about these feelings.

I became quiet and sad ever since that incident happened. Soon enough, we reached his house.

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"Here are some of my clothes. You could wear them for tonight," he hands me a plain black shirt and some boxer shorts.

I gladly accepted it and entered the bathroom to change. After that, I exited and dropped on his bed.

"Hmm I feel so sleepy," I said while laying on my stomach.

My eyes were already closed and my breathing was stable. Until...

Someone laid down beside me. I tried to open my eyes and I managed to open them a bit.

I saw doyoung's face up close to mine. I closed my eyes and smiled.

"Please stop playing with my feelings..." I softly said with a tired and sleepy voice

He brushed my hair backwards and whispered back

"I'm not," that made me snuggle closer to him as I place my hands on his chest.

His breathing was the same as mine, stable but a bit nervous.

"Doyoung, please sing to me. I've never heard you sing before," with closed eyes, I softly asked for him to sing

"Sure, now go to sleep," he said as he starts to sing while brushing my hair with his fingers

"Love-love the stars
Love-love the moon"

I realized that he sang Half Moon by Dean. It was a nice song, really.

"Nothing's really different
It's the same air
It's the same bed
Looking at the same ceiling
Why do I feel so empty
For no reason at all
It's been a few hours
Since I've been spacing out"

I wonder, out of all songs, why this?

"At first
I thought I was just hungry
No way no way no way
These days
I listen to Kanye's new album
But it's just typical

I leave the TV on
But I'm just flipping the channels
But bae, there's not much meaning"

I thought I was the hungry one back then?

"Nothing comes even close
To half of you
It can't fill me
It doesn't fill me up, yeah
Just half
If only I had just half of you
Then I wouldn't feel like this"

What is doyoung really feeling? As much as I know, he doesn't feel the same way as I do.

"On a night without you
Even when the moon is up
I can't see it
It's hidden by thoughts of you, yeah"