Cry of a Smile(Discontinued)

Past Life

Ever sense I was little my parents taught me to not trust anyone...not even them because they said they could possibly turn a way from me. I didn't quite understand why they were telling me these things but I always had assumed they were right. My parents named me Starlight Lyric. Though my parents would tell me these things they were always fighting over me and my brother. So when they said these things I would just say "ok" flat out. I got so use to them saying that I wouldn't even let them finish saying their sentence I just started to say "I know." By the time I started school I wouldn't talk to anyone and when I tried to make friends they would push me a way, call me names, tell me to die, and tell me maybe your parents fight because of you and what to do with you and your dum brother. Then the day came when my dad took off with my only playmate. My brother...I never saw my brother sense that day. My mother was a rich woman. She had all the men gaggleing about her. She owned a huge company. I was always forced to come to the parties that she through. The worst part is that according to the company law I have to get married before the age of 21. But to be honest with you I was never allowed near boys. The only exception was school...but there was no difference there because everyone knows my mother is rich and if anyone dose anything to me she is going to sew their parents plus everyone knew me..maybe because I ride a limo home. Though everyone knew me because of my mother none of them were my friends.For they all had fake smiles on. The only two people I consider friends are Rosenly and Crystal. Both of them were the only ones that didn't care who my mother was or what standard I held in the company. They were always there when I needed them the most. Like when kids made fun of my name and told me "if your name is Starlight Lyric why don't you shine your song" but the truth is they thought I couldn't sing...when I did know how to sing. Roselny and Crystal never did that instead that would back me up. Even when there here for me I still feel alone because I am always wondering did I do something to cause the divorce between my parents or was it not my fault. I have had flashbacks about my parents fighting and me and my brother playing are insterment together and the performances we did together. I played the panio and flute while my brother played panio and guitar. Even with my life getting on track I sometimes wonder if he remembers me. I was only in 1st grade and he was in 2nd when we got seprared. Thought I am almost done with my last year in middle school I still have quite the road ahead of me. When I got separated I told myself everything was going to be good again and I will be happy again. When I realized things weren't getting good I just stayed strong in what the circumstance was. Now I don't know what to think. I just what to feel ok.....ok is all I what to feel. Once I feel ok I know things are getting there...they just need time.
"Though time doesn't wait
Time has a time
Though no one will know
When time starts nor
End. For you see.
Time has a time."