Rant page

Life.

I've done something like this before, I deleted after people told me I was being "too dramatic".  

This is what goes on, I'm not fibbing for friends.  

This is personal and if you don't care or don't want to read it, then leave, it won't offend me.  

This is just a way for me to relax.  

So ive done this spill, ive been bullied, always.  For everything, i could be slaying and someone would find some flaw.  I am short, skinny, but thick.  I have big thighs and junk in the trunk, no longer ashamed of that.  But one thing that bothers me is when people call me fat, i worry about my weight.  I watch what i eat, i work out, and i have good genetics.  I work out alot when i can, i have weird genetics with my muscles and bones.  It sucks but, i modify my workouts and it works out.  I've become less sensitive towards others for some of the bullying reasons which is both good and bad.  On one end, I don't pity those who are being purely petty but at the same time, i  can be a little harsh.  I have patience but you push me slightly over my limit and I can be, kinda mean.  I don't mean it, it's just...  I was raised to be tough.  I also have major anxiety and depression issues which make my temperament a little on edge.  I give people way too many chances, im too trusting, and once i fall for someone, i give them my everything and its too overbearing sometimes.  Ive been told so many times that i should tone myself down.  But the thing is, once you know me fully, im not this shy girl.  Im loud and proud.  I get my feelings hurt easily, i wont show it until im by myself cause i don't want to give the satisfaction to the haters.  I'll fake it, smiles, laughs, comebacks, anything so they don't get the satisfaction.