The struggle of love

About myself (and long description on how i got a boyfriend)

Okay before I start I'm just going to tell you a little about myself. I am 15 years old, I live in a really small town, My dad is a pastor and mom is a nurse, i don't have many friends, and I honestly have never been in a relationship before this one. Ever since 5th grade I have wanted to have a best friend. I mean yes I have friends but they only talk to me at school or when I see them at the store or something. But in my freshman year I was struggling with depression. I was always depressed I had. I was honestly done with life. I would pray to god every night and every morning or just when I was doing nothing, I would pray that I would have just one best friend that's all I wanted. I was willing to change my life just for a friend. For about 4 weeks I was doing that. So in my math class I had this friend and he was a guy. We were not that close we would joke around a lot and one day he was making these faces and I took a picture of him and said "dang ain't he cute" and I sent it to him. Later that day I was going to lunch and his cousin and his best friend came by and was like so you like him? And I was like eww no just as a friend. So after school I texted him and told him that they asked me that and he got all mad. And i was like sooo... do you like me? And you know he answers like all guys "idk I mean a little I guess". And then we were just talking all that day and that night. I was really depressed that night and he comforted me. Even though he was just texting me he made me feel safe. We pretty much knew everything about each other by the end of the night. He even knew how depressed I was. And I was telling him how I wanted to kill myself and he was trying to convince me that I couldn't. I really didn't know why he was so determined for me to assure him that I wasn't going to and I asked why don't you want me too? And he answers because if you kill your self I'll kill myself. So after about an hour of us on that subject I was getting tired and we were playing 20 questions but it was more like infinite amount of questions and I told him that I was tired and he said "one last question before you go to sleep... are we dating?" And I was like I don't know do you want to?
So that's how that happened and 4 months later we are still together. And I am happier than I ever have been.