EXQUISITE

FRIENDSHIP OVER

We've been through years
I witnessed your smiles
I witnessed your tears
We shared happiness
I helped you face your fears

We've been so close my friend
But now, we came to an end
An end that is not expected
For a bond that we started
Have I done something wrong to make you leave me?

I stayed with you when you're dreary
I comforted you when you're eyes are teary
I laughed with you when you're happy
We celebrated special occasions
I gave you advices when you're defiled by confusion
I guided you when you think you made a wrong decision
I was there to witness your irrational emotions

We shared some secrets
A remark that we do trust each other
Things that only we shall keep together
But now it's already over
I've been replaced by another
Another friend whom you think is a better listener

Is she better than me?
Is she more trustworthy than me?
Does she make you happier?
Does she fit your standards better?
Can't I fill that space in your heart anymore?

Can't I be your favorite person anymore?
Can't we make promises again?
That you and I, we'll make our friendship last forever
That you and I, we'll chase our goals together

I tried to seek for a valid explanation
But what I only got is confusion
Confusion that made me blame myself
I blamed myself for being replaceable
I blamed myself for being not enough

But I guess I'm tough
I called your name, that time when you're laughing with her
Saying "Let's fix this together"
You replied, "What's the matter?"
I hugged you and cried on your shoulder
Are you not really aware?
Am I the only one who's making a big deal out of this?

But I miss you, I love you
I miss those times when we're laughing out of the blue
I miss those times when we're doing silly things
I miss those times when I have a friend to lean on
A hand to hold on, a shoulder to cry on

I waited for you to come back
On bended knees, I cried
Reminiscing all those memories
Looking at our pictures together
Smiling like we're real sisters

For the last time, I cried
Hell, my heart gets tired
For every shit that I tried
Just to make you come back

And now you're here in front of me
Saying "I miss you bessy"
Crying and sobbing like crazy
Because that new friend of yours left you
But I'm sorry, I realized my worth already
Our friendship is finally over bessy