Oppossites Attract

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Flashback continued:

Then when I was about to leave all of a sudden a bunch of doctors started to rush and I started panicking I didnt know what was happening. They wouldn't tell me all they said was "ma'am please wait outside you can't be in here at this moment." I asked what was happening but they wouldn't tell me, I had refused to go in the waiting room so they had to drag me out of there.

After a long wait what seamed like forever a doctor had finally came out and I got up and asked "what's wrong with my mother? please tell me! Is everything okay?" I just kept looking at him to answer me and just then he gave that look like 'im sorry we tried everything' I just ran to the room where my mother was in, and that's were I completly broke down I couldn't bare to see my mother dead because of me. "im so sorry mom I can't believe this happened this was all my fault, I should've done something but now your gone and I can't do anything about it. I...I love you so much don't forget"

After I left the room I saw the doctors put the white sheet on top of her body. I couldn't bare to see that so I started screaming "NO! WHY DID THIS HAPPEN ITS ALL MY FAULT!" A few nurses came to try calm me down but it didn't work, so I just ran and ran

 I felt so hopeless, it felt like someone .got my heart and shattered it into tiny pieces and just let it fly away. My mother was the only thing I had left in my family because after my father left us he started to randomly come to our house drunk in the middle of the night and I was so scared of my father that he would do something terrible.

I hadn't realized I was back home because I was just running and I couldn't stop. I was actually afraid to go inside because I was afraid that my uncle might still be there so I walked fast to the front door and looked through the window to see of he was there, and im so glad he wasn't . But I felt completely alone I had no one what was I going to do with myself, I had no family that I could call I never met them and I was sure I wasn't going to call my father because I was still so afraid of him or any men in particular. The worst thing I had to face was that I was only in middle school and I didn't know what to do. Would I go to an orphanage or foster care? Another thing I had to learn was that I needed to have self confidence in myself and not only beat myself up that it was my fault for my mothers death. I knew that once I had a family or if I ever get one I would have to be happy and pretend nothings wrong but that's not the case, because for me that would be considered fake and I'm not fake. I just remember that im never goinft to be that happy little girl I was before 'this'  happened.

                  ' Flashback Ends'

"Skylar are you ready?" asked Julie she was my foster sister, but to me she wasn't just my foster sister I thought of her as

a real sister. I never had a sister or a brother so its nice to know someone has your back, she was older than me she was 18 and I was only 17 so we weren't that far apart of age wise anyways. "Yea I'll be out in a bit" I yelled so she can hear but not in a harsh way, she may always be on my butt I love her anyway. When I had finally gone to the kitchen she was just sitting there looking mad, "something wrong?" I asked.

"Yea the fact that you took like an hour even though your only going to school"

I knew she was going to say that, she always does so my response was an eye roll. We said by to our mom and left to school, we got to school like 10 minutes later the drive to school wasn't to far but I hated to ride with Julie she was always talking about her boyfriend which let me tell you. Gosh. He is the most stuck up person, oh and also he walks like if he had a pencil shoved up his ass. He just irritates me so much. But of course I have to be 'nice', after that annoying talk about Cody we finally got to school and I was glad I couldn't take much more talk about him.

'Speak of the devil' there was Cody and just before he came over here I said "Leaving now, have a 'great' day".

Julie gave the 'im going to kill you' look but I just ignored her and walked off. Just then my friends came along and we all said hi and just talked before class started, then the bell rang and we were late because we weren't paying attention to the time so I was practically running to my class and to my advantage someone had to run into me and dropped all my things.

"Great just fucking great" I said loud enough the other person could hear. "I'm sorry I don't see you" said the guy "Next time watch were your going okay!" I huffed "um.. yeah I'm sorry"

That was weird I feel like I know him, oh wait I do he's that nerd that always stares at me he's weird. 

As I opened the door to class all eyes were on me, "Why were you late?" asked my professor "why does it matter? I'm here now aren't i" I said back and sat in my seat. I was glad class was over I've always hated World Geography, then Zach came over and I was kind of surprised because he hasn't talked to me since we broke up. "What do you want" i asked annoyed may I add, "I just want to apologize for what I did, take me back baby!" oh how desperate he is.

"Why should I? You broke my trust, and I don't date cheaters.  Goodbye Zach"

              ~~~Authors Note~~~

im sorry I haven't updated in such a long time. I have been busy with a lot of things and I haven't had enough time, but anyways keep voting and commenting ilysm .xx