happier //phan

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Don't judge meeeeee
I've been on hiatus for a while
But... hello
I also watch a lot of phan edits and listen to ed Sheeran a lot
I saw him in concert
Let me tell you
It was amazing
So I decided to write one off the song Happier by Ed Sheeran
Enjoy!

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Dan's POV

The soft pink jumper feels like heaven on my skin. It's been a while since I've worn it and I'm enjoying every second in it.
I love pastel colors.
Everything about it was just so relaxing and soft, it made me feel safe and warm. Also life in general was just so dark with job interviews, people that will push you down, and everything. Pastels just... lighten up the world for me.
I was sat on the couch watching Doctor Who when the alarm on my phone goes off, it was almost time. I get up and go to my closet, grabbing a pair of black jeans and a black jumper. I take off my pastel clothing, replacing it with the dark clothes I've been forced to wear.
My boyfriend- Jamie - doesn't like my pastels, he used to, but then he... changed.
No.
No.
He's not abusive, he just has a lot of stress and he says my pastel clothing adds to it because it makes him think I'm a girl.
Doesn't make much sense, but that's what he told me, and I don't want to question it.
That's why I'm not allowed to wear skirts or flower crowns around him either.
And being the caring boyfriend I am I went out and bought loads of black clothing to wear when he's here.
Mum and my close friend Lou say that I need to leave him, but how can I? He's so good to me and he loves me so much...
I hear the front door open and slam shut, the footsteps echo through the flat and he appears in front of me.
"Hello Jamie.." my voice is soft and quiet as I speak to him. There was another thing, I can't be too loud like I used to because my voice irritates him after work. I take his briefcase from him, placing it down, then take his coat and hang it. All of my movements were so natural, by now it was basically a routine, "how was work?"
"Shitty as usual. Did you forget to make dinner?" He grumbles, he was just tired after a long day.
"I was actually waiting for you, what do you want for dinner?"
"You already know what I want for dinner, you dumbass, I told you this morning and I remember telling you to have it ready by the time I came home.."
"I'm sorry, Jamie, I forgot..." I say, my voice quieter than before.
"Damn right you should be sorry." He says, going to the kitchen and opens the fridge, "where's all the fucking beer?" He asks angrily and I gulp.
"I-I got rid of it..." I say, looking down, pulling at my sleeves.
"You got rid of it?! Why the fuck did you do that?!" He yells, slamming the fridge shut making me jump a bit.
"I-I don't like you drinking a-and you have a problem..." I say quietly.
It's quiet. Too quiet. Then suddenly my body is slammed against the wall, he's holding me up by my jumper, and he forces me to look at him.
"You useless," his hand smacks my cheek, "Spoiled," he tugs me hair, "Bitch. I let you stay here and this is how you thank me?! I work everyday for hours and what do you do? You sit at home on your ass and film bullshit videos that won't get you anywhere in life. For all I know, you could be flaunting your twink ass all over a porn site for money.." He growls and finishes with a punch to my gut. He drops me to the ground, sending me a glare, "I'm going to the pub." He says and goes to our room, changes and then as suddenly as he came, he was gone.
I didn't even look at my bruises today, they would fade anyway. Like the one on my cheek from the other day.
He just had a lot of stress from work! It's okay!
What truly hurt was the comment about my job... I filmed videos for YouTube and I'm pretty successful on it. I have around 2.3 million subscribers and he knew how much it meant to me after I dropped out of uni. YouTube just made me feel... happy.
I stand up straighter and decide to clean up a bit around the house. I feel a small drop hit my hand and see small red dot. I touch my cheek and sigh, his ring... That always makes me bleed when he slaps me because somehow the sharp part is always facing towards me.
I put a plaster on my cheek and start cleaning the house, humming quietly to myself, 'maybe I should talk to him about this. He loves me, right? He still cares about me and my well being, maybe he'll stop if I ask nicely?' I think to myself and grab my phone.
I pull on a beanie and shoes before deciding to go out to a little cafe I usually go to during the day. The owner was a sweet old woman who treated me like her son. She always made me feel better.
I grab my wallet before stepping in the cold winter air, my breaths turning into smoke. There's nothing protecting me from the icy air except  the jumper and beanie, but even then, that wasn't enough.
To make it worst; Jamie has the car and I do have enough money to get one of my own, but he says I shouldn't.
Little background on our relationship; we met about five years ago at a New Year's Eve party (cliche am I right?) and instantly had feelings for each other, we were even each others midnight kisses. We got together and then after a while he asked if I wanted to move in with him! He works at a law firm and I make YouTube videos! I used to do liveshows, but Jamie said I should stop because they were interrupting his work.
I reach the little cafe and walk in, my skin feeling like it's melting from the warmth of the room. I rub my hands together as I walk up to the register to find that the old woman who owns this place wasn't there like usual. Instead there was a boy- no a man. He looked a little older than me and was absolutely gorgeous. He had raven black hair and bright blue eyes. There were sleeves of tattoos on his arms and I could see one peeking above his shirt up to his neck, he probably had some in other places. What caught my eyes was he also had a lip ring, and eyebrow bar.
I was taken back by his eyes... they were so many different colors; blue, green and.. is that yellow?
I snap out of it when I hear him clear his throat, a soft smirk grace's his perfect pink lips.
"Hi I'm Phil, you're cute, what can I get for you?"
              
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First chapter done! I hope you guys are as excited as I am!! I'm a pretty shitty writer though, so let's hope this doesn't suck!!
Whoooo!
Bye love you! <3