Saved

I walked on the cold dirty ground, I felt the freezing feeling through my bare feet. There was this stinging pain that bolted there. The rain poured down on my hair, by now I think my clothes and hair was drenched in cold water. My eyes were stinging and I felt watery droplets glide down my cheeks.

My family died today. Someone murdered them and I could see his expression of insanity. A wicked grin, eyes with tears and a horrible laugh. His laugh and face were still haunting my thoughts and the screaming and crying from my family. I still remember what he said.

"They hurt you, therefore they are going to die for their sin, my precious flower."

That day when they were murdered, was a rainy and gloomy day. I was bored from just sitting in my room doing nothing, but I can't complain, I rather be there instead with my family. They know how to hurt me, they know how to get me to hurt myself. I was cutting that day when he came. He spared me to what cost? I was still going to hurt myself in the end. I'm damaged goods, a broken soul, sick of what life has to give and mostly just someone who can't be saved till I met the one for me. The one that turned my twisted life upside down, made my life good again. He repaired me to a normal person, he gave me hope about life. I owe him my life, I'm in his debt for saving me.
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I woke up with a thud, I lifted my hand up to my eyes to feel a watery substance. Crying again, huh? I sighed and sat up. I ignored the bright sunlight that was blinding me. I have learnt to ignore things rather easily. I do it a lot for saving the time people will talk to me. It's a waste and they will know it after and regret it, that's why I'm doing it. Did I mention I don't have a family anymore? Maybe you noticed from my dream? I rather not look into that dark memory of mine. I want to forget but I can't. I have nightmares about it.

I walked over to the bathroom and took a quick shower, after I did my normal chores. Put makeup on to hide my lifeless expression, covered my cuts and brushed my hair. After that I put on my school uniform, thankfully it had long sleeves but I hide my cuts if I have P.E. Luckily for me it's two days from now. I went downstairs to be met with the familiar messy room. Everything in this apartment is messy, I don't want to clean it. It will remind me of my mother, the mother that always enjoyed cleaning and could clean for anyone she knew. My room would always be clean but now, it's a total mess.

I went to the kitchen and opened the fridge and took out a yogurt and then opened the kitchen drawer to get a plastic spoon that I could easily get rid of after. I took it with me and the little yogurt I fetched from the fridge and headed out. I walked slowly and ate it.

I couldn't say I was popular or if I was the nerd at school. Many guys have tried to get me to date them but I declined them multiple times. You can say I'm like one of those cold girls in the bad girl romance movies, but though I'm not like them. I could never find love and it will not come to me either. I thought when I was younger I could try to be normal but I realized that it could never happen. My life was a fiasco, I'm a coward, I ran from my family when they needed me the most, but I couldn't bring myself to help them when they were the ones that hurt me first. I haven't done anything to them to hate me, but maybe they started to hate me from the day I was born? Mom always looked annoyed at dad whenever he was drunk and then mom would always be angry at me and yell at me that it was my fault that he got drunk and was laying with other women.

My focus was concentrated on my thoughts, I dropped the spoon and yogurt a long time ago. I couldn't notice where I was going in till I felt someone's chest against myself, I fell on the asphalt. I looked up to see a tall boy with blonde hair and ocean blue eyes. He was thin but well built. I noticed that he looked down at me, my gaze followed his to my chest. I stood up quickly and turned around. Why am I making so much fuzz over this?