WARNING: Mentions of suicidal thoughts and depression.
A oneshot with my favorite character, but it's gonna be really depressing... Just how I like it!
It was a cold dreary day, the other countries called you and asked you to go check up on Russia cause he hasn't been and the few last world meetings. You shaking, replied "S-sure..." To be completely honest... You were terrified of the big country, not like it was uncommon to be scared of him. And here you were, standing in front of the Russian man's house. You hesitantly lifted your hand to ring the doorbell, as you rung the doorbell a wave of Anxiety showered you as the tension increased waiting for the door to open... But nothing came, you frowned as you rung the doorbell repeatedly but still nothing came. You took a big breath and a big step of courage and opened the door. Surprisingly it was unlocked, so you took one step and entered the big warm mansion.
You took a look around and it made you feel at ease, it had a comforting atmosphere that anyone would yearn for in a home. You looked around for his room, it obviously took about 37 minutes to find what you guessed to be his room, it seemed the be at the end of the long hallway. You slowly walked down to the room but as you approached, you heard sobbing and murmurs come from the room. Anxiety was knocking on your door as you hesitantly creaked open the door, now you were expecting to see a Russia get angry and irritated knowing that you went into his house without permission and opening his door without knocking, but what you saw was totally unexpected... Ivan, with a blade, slicing his arms and wrists while muttering "I-I'm a monster aren't I?" To himself. The room was dark and somewhat neat from what you could see, you stood frozen from shock and fear. He finally looked back and froze, he started sobbing even harder as he hid himself and his butchered arms. Your eyes softened, this was not the Russia you knew, who everyone else knew. You stepped forward towards him and engulfed him in your arms, his eyes widened not used to the contact, or to be exact the pain from bullies earlier on. "W-why did you do this to yourself?" You asked with concern present in your voice. "I-it's to punish myself for all that I've d-done..." he broke down again as you hugged the man even tighter as his tears stained your coat. "Just know that I'm here for you from now on" you smiled as he smiled back "T-thank you..."
THE NEXT DAY~
You had spent the night comforting the broken country. Today was the world conference and you had convinced Russia to go. As you two walked in everyone's eyes were on you two. You saw Russia's eyes fill with Anxiety as he grasped you hand and shuffled back. "Where the bloody hell were you?!" England shouted as fear was became present in Ivan's eyes as he clutched onto you. "Well that was a rude way of asking!" You replied as Englands eyed widened surprised that you were standing up for him and more or less not scared of him! "That question will not be answered today so let's just get on with the meeting shall we?" You said as everyone slowly nodded and sat down.
TIME SKIP~
You went back to you cozy home after exchanging numbers with Russia and addresses. You opened up the door and went to your room and took out a razor and started slicing at your thighs while tears became present in your sorrow filled eyes. You didn't hear a knock at your door and the gasp emit from the Russian mans mouth, but you did feel the razor being thrown out from your grasp and a strong pair of arms engulf you in warmth. "Why?" He asked with tears filling in his eyes. "To take away the pain" you simply replied as he gave you a concerned look. "Don't do this again. That's an order." You sighed and nodded.
"я люблю тебя."
THE END
What did you guys think? I have fallen back into the Hetalia fandom. And Russia's my favorite! I know this sucks but hey, I tried.
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