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Kehte haina , zindagi Main ek koi zaroor hota Hai jis...
It was , 1 month ,since she has gone I saw many glimpses of her....
Sad
Happy
Depressed
Loveful....
And myself,there stuck with my feelings spread all around all memories...
Why do I feel so,betrayed?
I was the one who betrayed her,when she needed me ,someone who could give her a hand of hopes!
And ,what did i do!lekin main fatema se pyaar krta hon!meri feelings kya ?koi meri care kyu nhi karta?
aur usse ki feelings ka kya?
Somewhere my inner voice screamed.i sighed rufly ,i walked towards bream of bed layed helplessly i feel like laughing at myself .
A knock! made sat up .
"shehry you r fine na"? Hussain asked,as he came in sat beside me.i nodded.
"kya hua why do u look like a helpless now"?.he had tint of tauntness in his voice,i felt.
and felt a pang in heart.
"uhh.."i looked at him questiongly.
"uhh nothing just like that" he shrugged.
we both went silent, like always and forever.
"you really love her don't u"? he asked all of sudden.
"who are u talking about"? i asked.
"fatema! you do right alot more than you love the other things and people that you are blessed with"? he had that tauntness again.
"Yes i do! alot more than myself" i confessed truly.
Maybe!.
"hmmm chalo maan lete hain !humse bhi ziada ?aur kabhi ye socha hai ke woh tujh se pyaar karti hai"? He asked ,something that i didnt even know the answer to it.
i was left ,doubtful...
"jab time mile toh zaroor pochna aur ek aur baat apne dil ko utna na uss ki taraf kiche ke dil bhi harr man jaye tere iss maybe one sided love ke liye aur realize kar ke tera dil kis taraf hai wo larki jiss ko tune sahara dene se mana kar diya ya wo larki joh tujh se pyaar karti bhi hai ke nhi! inke jawab tere paas bhi nhi"he left me dumbfounded.
"aja mama khane keliye bula rahi hain" with that he left,patting my shoulder.
i held my head tightly in my palms.
I never ,noticed or cared to ask fatema !maybe she never knew about my feelings,either i told her, it was my secret love for her maybe!
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After,the yummy delicious biryani i came to the same place where the picnic was held,the cold breeze fanning the trees touching each as the air flew harshly.
it had been month ,mom didnt talk to me properly,seriously something pricked inside.
I could feel her aroma ,engulfing me ,her scent ,her fragile features came in mind.... **********
i drove to gym,worked out for bit cause i didnt feel like working out .
on the way back ,i needed few things so i visited kroger.
i made myself comfortable on the bean bag,had laptop on my lap and started making myself busy in editing vlog, had headache and some sips of nescafe made it relief .
maybe i was avoiding the questions asked from hussain or i was confused.
after editing ,i layed down on bed.
"kya woh tujhse pyaar karti hai"?
"fatema ya kainaat kon hai mera pyaar ,junoon'?
"humse bhi ziada"?
am i losing everything?
kis ki taraf hai mera dil raazi?
do i really love fatema than everything i am blessed with?
kis se pochon inn sawalon ke jawab?
ahhh !i am sooo screwed up!
so i am confused..........
thinking of this question ,my felt heavy so my vision blur and sleep overtook me...
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Asalamualikum! Kase ho?
Just a quick update! Just to bring shehry back to reality...
How was it? What do think ,who's gonna answer his question and who is he gonna ask? (Opinions needed).
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