The girl who deserves better.

Chapter 1 Am I a lesbian?

My name is Fay. I'm fifteen years old and I am currently on my last few months of freshmen year. I have always been involved with my friends, sports, and after school activities, I go to church when I visit my father and am always kind to everyone I meet.... so why? Why is this happening to me? What have I done to deserve this? I, Fay Roberts think I am a lesbian. Sure, all of my life I played with the boys and dressed just like one of them not that I like to follow stereotypes but I'm just throwing those out there. My parents wouldn't mind, both of them are extremely supportive of everything I do, and when my older sister came out as Bi sexual they loved and supported her everyday for it. But that's not what I'm worried about, I'm not worried about whether or not my parents are still going to love me, I'm worried about how society will view me and even worse, drawing unwanted attention towards myself. As I keep letting my mind wander and think of the worst case scenarios if anyone were to
find out I was snapped out of my trance.
I hear a faint voice yell my name..
Fay- oh, uh, what?
I looked up and it was my fellow dancer Moriah. She was one of the reasons I know I was gay, the way she smiled at me when she talked, the way she laughed at all of my stupid jokes made my heart melt, but I know she's straight and would never ever like me back, so what's the point?...
Moriah- Fay, Fay, Fay! Your zoning out! Miss Lydia is going to make you sit out if you don't focus!
Fay- oh right! Uh, sorry.
Moriah- what were you thinking about anyways?
Fay- oh, it's nothing! Don't worry about it.

And with that she smiled at me and continued to dance. Oh god do I love that smile, fuck Fay! Snap out of it! Get over her because it's never going to happen! I just wish I could tell her how I truly feel but I know that would resolve in heartache and I'm not prepared for that. So for now I'm just going to act like everything is completely normal.. Even if I'm falling for my best friend.