Morning Thoughts

Dear Depression

Dear depression,

Thank you for sending out the invitations to the party I never knew I had. Thank you for making me the center of attention and the subject of conversation. You're just too thoughtful in all the ways I never imagined.

Thank you for hollowing out my insides and allowing guests to stay overnight in the crevices of my rib cages. Thank you for masking my tears by sending down rainstorms, muffled thunder in the distance to silence my screams.

Thank you for taking my smile and stitching it on my face permanently so that others don't know how I'm really doing. Thank you for throwing me out of a plane when I said I needed to see the world and that I was tired of breathing oxygen.

Thank you for using my favorite songs as the anthem of a parade I never knew I deserved. Thank you for hiding passions underneath the same mattress I used to bellow out cries.

But most of all, thank you for trying to break me. To take a sledgehammer labeled reality and cracking the very glass of a vessel I once hid behind. Thank you for telling me that days get worse as the time passes by. Thank you for giving me nothing when I needed everything.

Thank you for letting me run when I needed space. Thank you for killing my old self. Thank you for the demons you've placed in my heart and soul; thank you for clipping the wings of my angels.

Sincerely,
Your unwilling host