Everything is Possible

Introduction

I try to live life happy. Sometimes I don't know what to do. But I can't live life happy. It's impossible. Some days I feel as if I'm going to succeed something Big but then when I eat I feel this feeling inside my gut that I can't do it. Nothing. I never will. When I go to bed I ask God why it has to be me. Why can I never succeed. It feels like I'm in a whole different universe named "She doesn't belong on Earth." God. With my mom sick and all it's so depressing. My dads always fucking at work. Plus, I ALWAYS have to take care of Caden. (My little brother.) He always whines, then he cries, then he yells and throws food. I'm so tired. School, is fine. It is the only thing that takes my mind off of my family life.  My friend Shula understands it all. I mean I kind of talk about it all the time and she never, I mean EVER gets mad about it. When I cry she cries too. Then she puts my head on her shoulders and calmly pats my back. She why she is my best friend? I do the same for her. Well, I pay her back. See she gets bullied a lot because, she's a black and she has ADHD (Attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder) I feel really bad for her because she is a kind loving person. I don't understand why God made me and Shuna this way. I mean don't we deserve a better life? Ok. Enough of that. So that is my life and my problems. So, I had this math test today and GUESS WHAT. Like I said everything is IMPOSSIBLE  so of course, I failed. I mean, I don't know if I failed but the teacher was grading them and she looked at like I failed. So yeah. I know what you are probably thinking. Stop being so hard on yourself! Well I can't. Put your self in my situation. Do you think I am able to? No. I'm impossible. My life is impossible. My family is impossible. Everything in this damn world is impossible! I don't know what to do.