Why?

Why? - Full Story

Dear world,

Why? Why was I in an accident? Why was I diagnosed with young-onset Alzheimer's; stage 6 which soon progressed to stage 7 at the age of 14? And why did I die within 2 days after diagnosis? Why did I want to die?

My eyes opened. I didn't know where I was, but I was pretty sure it was a hospital room. I couldn't believe that this visit to the hospital was only last week; January 15th, 2010.

I couldn't and still can't remember what got me there. The doctors said I had temporary memory loss after the accident, and it would be best if I remembered things on my own.

Only if I knew what happened! All I could make out was that my sister Alex, wasn't talking to me and I didn't know why.

Alex was my older sister, she was two years older than me. So at the moment she was a junior, she is super bossy though. Typical older sister. She's really pretty though, she has dirty blond hair with some pink highlights here and there. I can't even mention her ice cold blue eyes. I shiver every time I look at her eyes. She wasn't that tall though she was only five feet, she's a lot like my mom. But I don't like mentioning my mom, so I don't really like my sister.

Anyways, today was my first day back at school since I got out of hospital. I got out yesterday. My head was pounding, but I didn't tell anyone I knew that if I told someone they wouldn't let me go to school and I really needed to see my best friend, Rita. We were freshmen after all and it was the beginning of the year. I probably missed a lot of work and Rita would be the best one to go to, she is really smart. She takes college level classes in 9th grade!

Rita is very intelligent most of her classes are AP, sometimes I wonder, does she even need to go to college? Anyways you will get to know a lot about me by reading Rita's description because we are total opposites, yet best friends! Rita is really pretty, she has blonde hair, grey eyes, she's an athlete, (I am too!) and did I mention that she has the best grades on the face of this planet? Anyways Rita is the one I can count on with everything, I've known her since Pre-School.

Things are getting really awkward between my sister and I, this morning instead of pushing me to get out of the door like she usually does (typical older sibling) she let me go in front of her and barely even talked to me. I don't know why she is behaving this way!

The bus pulled up at the school and suddenly the boxers in my head stopped.

I saw Rita and I felt the most delightful feeling in the whole world. I stepped off the bus and was hoping for a hug but she just came up to me and said "Hey, how are you?" as if she saw me yesterday!

"I'm not good anymore" I replied with way too much attitude.

"Gosh, sorry Ms." She stopped, "you know whatever. It doesn't even matter let's just go to homeroom" she's mad at me, and she's not acting normal. I decided to let it go as soon as round 2 of the boxing match started in my head.

I was walking to class, I saw the cutest boy in our grade and waved at him, he waved back with a smile and ran up to me.

"Are you doing anything after school today?" he asked, I didn't even know his name. I probably forgot after the accident.

"Um, no I don't think so," I paused waiting for him to tell me his name.

"Daniel" he replied carefully, "Before your accident we, we were kind of a thing" he spoke even quieter.

"Really? I have a boyfriend?" I felt so stupid when I said this.

"Had, I'm kinda with you're best friend now, Rita." Daniel looked at Rita."We had some really deep talks and good times while you were out of school. That's why I'm whispering, but don't worry we'll be back together soon." He sounded like he was my doctor telling my dad I was going to be okay.