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Chapter 36 - Part 2 of part 2 - I'm Sorry

Read the end no matter what

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Recap:

'He doesn't love you.'

'He never did.'

'You are not worth it.'

'You're worthless.'

'You don't deserve him.'

'He's just using you.'

'They pity you.'

'You aren't special.'

'He doesn't care.'

As they taunted me, the walls laughed at me. They laughed as my tears fell onto the ground.

My dark hair stayed still at the side of me.

"I know I'm not worth it, I know I don't deserve him, I know I'm not special, I know he doesn't care about me, I know they all pity me, I know he's using me, I know I'm worthless and I know he never did love me." I said screaming back at them.

Pounding my head and grabbing each side of my body mentally screaming for help. I couldn't do this.

It was too much. I couldn't take it on my own. But there is no one to help. For I'm all alone.

With no one to comfort me.

Only because.

I'm alone...

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Mariana's POV

"I know, I know, I know, I know , I know, I know!" I repeated to myself hitting my head.

The voices just would not stop.

Filling in my mind.

The darkness filling in my head.

Forcing me to break down.

"No. You will not let it get to you and you will make sure it doesn't." I whispered to myself quietly.

I took a shaky breath and opened the door. I saw the guys talking to Xavier and I stopped.

"No. You can do this and you will do this now." I whispered to myself three times. I then took another deep breath and continued to walk down.

The guys all stopped talking and faced me. Shock practically written across their forehead.

They were probably shocked because of my appearance.

Ryan had his mouth wide open as his jaw hanged down while Blake, Noah, Daniel and Cole had their eyes widened.

Xavier just stared at me in a look of anger and shock. I just ignored them and went into the kitchen to get water. I drank the water and when looked into the living room there was nobody there.

I sighed a sigh of relief and turned around.

Xavier.

I gasped.

He was staring right into my eyes as he was trying to pick out the mysteries behind them.

I pushed him away and walked up the stairs.

Well tried to.

He grabbed my hand pulling me towards him and pushing me against the wall.

He placed his thumb on my cheek rubbing it against my skin.

"You've been crying." He said.

I opened my mouth and glared at him.

"No. I have not. I am fine. And I am pretty sure that you would not care about me since you have a girlfriend."

He sighed.

"Exactly." I said.

I began walking away and had entered my room when he grabbed me.

He pulled me close to him.

"That's it. I don't want her. I want you. I crave you and I need you in my life. You are the only one I want. Can you not see that? You are everything I need to survive and what you are doing is killing me. Cliana is not my girlfriend and I don't love her. I hate her. I don't want and I don't need her. I could never love her. I just couldn't. I... I-I lo-" Xavier unwrapped his arms from around me. He sighed and looked away.

I went into my room and I shut the door.

"Mariana! Mariana!"

My breathing became uneven and the air in my throats was getting tight.

I felt a cold liquid drop down from my eye. My breathing stopped. My eyes widened. I began to hear the walls talking again. Mocking me. Torturing me.

I was going insane.

Something crawled up my throat in a slow manner. I felt something pour out of my mouth. It dropped onto the floor and I looked down to see what it was.

Blood.

I ran into the bathroom and started coughing and coughing. I heard the door being broken and footsteps. "Mariana! Mariana!" Xavier kept shouting. I stopped coughing and turned on the water in the tub.

I sat inside and started coughing again.

The tub water was soon filled with blood. I hugged myself and continued coughing.

I heard the bathroom door break down and the last things I heard were the voices of my boyfriend calling out my name as I felt I drop of water drop.

"Mariana." He croaked. "I'm sorry." He whispered.

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Guys okay that was um another upsetting chapter and I'm going to need you all to be real safe.