• A way to die •

Pain.

What is pain?
Is it like, a feeling?
Or a thought?

What if you think all of the faults in this world are yours,
And what if you hate your personality?
That's literally what i have every single day in the last three months.
I'm tired of thinking about problems and faults,
I just want to relax and reading a book without stress on my mind.

In the evenings, my brain only have deep thoughts.
What if i died?
Who will actually care?
Who will cry, and who will laugh.
Who are done, and who is just holding on.

How's life without me?
Better ?
I think so.

And what if.. Your friends don't understand your problems?
They always try to help you, but you can't tell them how you actually feel?

It's hard..

Oh and i also have anxiety do you guys know what it is?

The moment when you're in a market and you've a panic attack, heavily breathing, crying, dizzy and deep thoughts. Nobody knows what's happening and they still can't help.

That's a life with autism, anxiety & depression.