Flashback..
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"...so do you like me back?"
Those's were exact word Len Kagamine told me in 7th grade. It was the day after spring break. Len looked at me with his face completely flushed.
Should I say yes?
I was trying to find the correct words to say to him. His golden locks moved along with the wind. But as soon as my lips parted open to speak, negative thoughts overflowed my brain and any minute I'm going to say the stupidest thing that'll will make me cringe for the rest of my life.
In my past two relationships that I had it didn't end well. So whenever a situation such as this will come about I would freak out. I'm terrified that he'd break up with me. Well, I know that he's not like the others guys. But still my heart aches of just thinking the possibility of it happening again.
I'm so ashamed. I don't think I'm ready to go in another relationship again. I'm definitely not ready. So, I looked down with my bangs covering my face. I clenched my hands against my chest.
These were the exact words I said to him.
"I-I'm sorry Len but I'm not interested"
I'm a idiot.
Quickly, I turned on the heel of my foot and ran so he wouldn't have to see the tears that were pouring down my cheek. I ran as far as I could until I didn't feel poor Len's eyes tagging behind me. Voices rumbled inside my head.
Stupid girl, what the hell you doing??? He could be different!! Omg, Why didn't you give him a chance! Hah, wasn't he the boy you were crying over the other night?!
You're obviously an idiot!!
The voices in my head torn me apart the whole spring break.
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