My step-dad hates me
My Mother hates me
I want to fucking spill my guts with my knife
people say, "oh! you have to much to live for!!"
no.. the... fuck... I don't!
LEARN IT!
LISTEN TO MY DAMN WORDS!
for fucking Christ sake!
I DON'T
now.. look... i've done shit like this before! i know!
but, when your mother just screamed at you for a fucking hour, saying she doesn't care anymore, she's just going to stop talking to me
... it gets fucking hard!
I started cutting my arm awhile ago!
I have severe depression and my demons keep coming back! so do the damn voices in my head!
wanna know what they say?
No! You don't! lets just say... its sometimes satanic
As someone once said, "go to hell for heavens sake"
that's exactly what I'm going to do
I'm thinking of suicide every fucking second!
God Damn these fucking bullshit lies I've been told for almost... no.. entire fucking life!
by my mother
by my father
by me...
I told myself I could do it! I can make it! I'm almost there!
I can't... I won't.... I'm not good for anything! the best thing I've done in life is.... nothing...
I literally can't think of anything that I've achieved...
I'm thinking of putting DIE on my other arm... please don't go in comments and say, "you have so much to live for!" it agitates me
This book is just to get this out of my head and someone can know what im going through... hopefully...
