Faded

The bully, the beating, the break up

My books tumble out of my arms as I'm suddenly shoved into one of the lockers. I'm about to tell the person off when my back is pinned to the locker, and I'm raised off the ground by my collar.  I look up into the eyes of the school bully, and my main tormenter, Reiner.

"Hey fag. I heard you shagged your boyfriend in the janitor's closet yesterday, is it true slut?"
Reiner spit in my face with a sneer. I honestly didn't feel like dealing with his shit today. Without answering, I kicked him in the shin causing him to drop me and I started running. Lucky the halls were empty so I was able to move quicker. Obviously I wasn't quick enough because before I knew it, I was getting tackled to the ground.

I groaned in pain as the side of my face hit the hard floor. I was flipped into my back and Reiner pinned me down again with his hands on my neck. This time, i could tell he was pissed. His face in a full snarl now. "Do you think you can run from me you pansy?" His hands tighten slightly, and I try to pull them away. "Do you not realize what i can do to you?" They tighten more. "I could kill you right here and nobody would care, because you are just a fag. Nobody will ever care about you."

He removes his hands from my neck and I take a big gasp of air, I didn't have a chance to get away again before he pinned my arms down. He leaned in close to my ear and whispered "I'll make you a deal, you break up with your little fuck buddy and I'll stop bothering you. That ackerfuck pisses me off more than you and I want him in pain." He was grinning.

"He thinks he is all that just because he is top of the senior year and President in practically everything. But he'll be nothing without his freshman boy toy huh? You are nothing compared to him." He laughed. I was furious but I knew I couldn't do anything. He was much stronger than me.

I wasn't just a boy toy, I couldn't be, Levi did care about me, did he? While I zoned out for a second, I did realize that Reiner wanted me to respond. In his anger, he punched me in the nose. Hard. My nose started gushing as Reiner started talking again.

"If I ask you a question fag, you reply, got it?" I nod frantically and Reiner grinned. "Good. Now remember. Break up with the ackerfuck and.." before he could finish someone rounded the corner and yelled once he saw Reiner pinning me down. "Shit" he whispered and scrambled away. I sat up and covered my nose, trying to stunt the bleeding.    The person who yelled kneeled next to me, I look over to see it's Jean Kirstein.

"Eren are you ok! You look pretty beat up, we need to get you to the nurse." I was to tired to protest so i just went along with him. It wasn't until the nurse examined me that i realized how bad I actually was. A bruised cheek bone, bruised neck, bruised ribs, broken nose, and a mild concussion diagnoses later, I was sent home. To make my day better I had to walk in the rain because my dad was on a business trip and my mum went with him, great. Jean did offer to walk me home which was nice, but the nurse wouldn't let him leave school. So I was stuck feeling miserable.

Levi kept calling and texting me the rest of the day but I ignored him. I couldnt help but think that I was just a boy toy to him. I mean, he is the best student in the school. President of student council, captain of the fencing team, loved by both genders, and even accept for being gay. He is perfect and Reiner was right, I'm nothing compared to him. I fell asleep with these thoughts and only woke up to the doorbell ringing. I groaned in annoyance and answered the door, rubbing my eyes. The moment I opened the door I was attacked into a hug by a smaller person with black hair. Levi.

I groaned again in pain as he squeezed my bruised side. "Shit sorry." He apologized and pulled away, looking up at my bruised face. I didn't say anything to him, even though he is the only person I ever talk to. He lightly touched my cheek "Babe are you ok? I heard what happened, and I tried to contact you all day but you didn't respond." I just shrugged and walked towards the kitchen, still not replying. He followed me as I grabbed a bottle of water from the fridge and sat on the counter. He moved between my legs and hugged me lightly this time. His head pressed against my chest.

"I'm sorry I couldn't help you but please talk to me." Levi said softly. I felt tears forming but i forced myself not to cry. "Levi, I think we should break up." He jolted away from me in surprise, his eyes wide. "What? What do you mean?" Now it was him with tears forming. I look down at my hands and start picking at my nails, my head starts pounding. "I mean that i don't think we should be together anymore." I wish I could go back, I can't go back.

Levi rushed back over to me and grabbed my shoulders, shaking me. I look up at him and he has tears rushing down his face, but he also looked angry. "Did Reiner tell you to do this! What did that bastard tell you! I'll kill that son  Of a bitch." He was about to leave to the door but I grabbed his shoulder and spoke softly. "No. This was my choice." There goes my chance of going back. " I don't want to be together anymore." I took my hand off his shoulder and walked out of the room with my head down.

I knew he wasn't going to let go so easily when I heard him hurry after me. He gripped my arm and spun me around, smashing his lips against mine. I couldnt help but allow it. He pulled away a few seconds later and looked up at me sadly. "If you ever want to talk about what actually happened, I'll always be here. For you, a thousand times over." He sniffed softly and turned away from me. He paused for a second like he wanted to say something else, but then he left, slamming the door behind him. I stood there listening to his car pull away before my head throbbed again. I collapsed to the ground in pain, clutching my head. I tried to crawl to the couch, but i only made it half way before I passed out.

5 hours later

I woke up slowly, confused at first. I was confused why i was in the ground, my my head was pounding, why my whole body almost was in pain. After a few seconds I remember what happened and choked back a sob, curling up still on the floor. I can't believe I broke up with him. My only source of happiness. I sobbed again and covered my mouth, my hand getting covered in my falling tears.

I force myself to get off the ground a few minutes later , and walk into the bathroom. I turn the water on for a shower and inspect my appearance in the mirror. My nose is crooked and swollen along with my eyes. The whole area is a dark black and blue, trailing to the right side of my face where I bruised my cheek. I try to touch the bridge of my nose but I pull away wincing. I look at the finger prints around my neck, running my fingers across those also. I undress myself and examine my ribs. As expected they are bruised.

I stand there until the mirror fogs up, then I step into the burning water of my shower. I stand there with my head until the water for a while. My mind completely blank. At least until Levi popped into my mind. In a spurt of anger I punched the shower wall in front of me, I feel so numb that I can't feel it. I do see that my knuckles are now split, bleeding, and already starting to bruise. I sigh and turn the now cold water off. I wrap a towel around my waist after drying off slowly and walk to my room. I close my door and lay down slowly on my bed, not bothering to change. I layer there for a bit just thinking. Thinking about the huge mistake I just made. My last thought before falling asleep was Levi and the genuine smile he only wore around me.