I Know a Place

Why can't I find love?

Time lapse of Shannon life
--7 year old Shannon--
"Mommy where's daddy going?" The curly haired girl asks her mother. "He's going away for a while. You'll see him soon" she gives her daughter a weak smile and hugs her. "No matter what Shannon, love is real and when you start to understand you'll find one for yourself" the mother adds and starts crying. "Why are you crying mommy?" Younger Shannon asks. "I just lost my love. But I still have you and Casey to love endlessly" She smiles at her daughter. "Can I love anyone?" The little girl asks. "You can love whoever you want, as long as they make you happy" her mother says and goes back to the kitchen.

--13 year old Shannon--
"Ughhh I hate boys!" The girl screams into the pillow. "What happened now?" The mother asks with a little chuckle. "Kevin and I broke up. He's such a jerk" the girl says and her mother laughs. "Shannon look at me" she says and the girl picks up her head. "You're too young to understand what's happening. When you're older it's gonna hurt a lot more but for now live your life in happiness and not heart break" the mom says and Shannon immediately hugs her. "Is there such thing as love at first sight? Everyone at my school says they're fake" the girl says as she pulls away from her mothers embrace. "Anything is possible. If you can look at a person and already see a future together then you'll know if it's real" the mom says and leaves the room.

--16 year old Shannon--
"Why can't I fall in love mom?" The girl asks. "What do you mean, honey?" The mom sits by her daughter. "Well I broke up with Kevin again but I don't feel those butterflies everyone talks about" the mom laughs and puts her hands on the girls shoulders. "Maybe you didn't find the right one. Stop with Kevin and find someone better. You're way out of his league anyways" the mom says making the girl laugh. "Thanks mom. I'll try" the girl says as she watches her mom leave her room.

--21 year old Shannon--
"You just came home from college Shannon, why are you crying?" The mom asks as she sits right next to her daughter on her bed. "I'm gay mom!" The girl cries more and her mom just gives her a weird look. "Okay but what's the real problem?" The girls mother asks her. "I'm gay. You know I like girls. The same sex" the girl says frustrated. "I don't care if you like girls. I don't care if you like dogs. I love you Shannon and I want you to know that whatever you love, I will always love you" the mom says and hugs her crying daughter. "So who's the lucky girl?" The mom adds and making her daughter laugh. "Her names Cammie. I think I might actually love her" she says and the mother gives her a big smile. "Well then, don't lose her" the mom says and they both laugh.

--present time (24 years old)--
Shannon pov:
"Hey guys my names Shannon and this... is my beautiful girlfriend Cammie!" I say in to the camera and smile at the beautiful girl sitting right next to me. "I will never get tired of that" she smiles at me and we continue filming the video. After about a hour of filming I stop the camera and lie down on our bed. "What's wrong cam?" I ask her as she's been acting a bit weird lately. "Nothing shan. Just there's something that's been bothering me lately" she says and I nod my head. "Do you wanna go to carters party later?" I ask and she shakes her head no. "I think I'm gonna hang with heather tonight, you go have fun" she comes over and kisses my cheek. "Okay. I'll be home as soon as possible. I love you" I say and she just leaves the room. I sigh as I am frustrated that this relationship isn't working out anymore. She hasn't even said I love you in a month and I feel like those feelings between us are gone.
I get ready for Carters party and just go with skinny black jeans and my Harley Davidson shirt. Also bring a jacket just in case. "I'm leaving" I yell and all I hear is a bye from heathers room.

When I get to the party I get crowded by my friends who I love so much. "Heyyyyy shanny!" Amy Ordman says while slurring all of her words. "Hey where's Cammie?" Jess asks and I shrug. "She's at home. She wanted the hangout with heather again" I say and she shakes her head no. "Don't let that bring you down. Let's partaaayyyy!" She says and hands me a drink. We start dancing on the dance floor but I see a girl who tripped over someone's foot and I run to go catch her. I look at her and she's staring into my eyes. "You okay, love?" I ask as I lift her up. "Yeah. Thanks for catching me" She says still in my  arms. "No problem. Didn't want a girl like you fall on that beautiful face of yours" what the hell did I just say? "I'm Cari Fletcher" she says and I laugh a little . "I know, you're kinda famous. But I'm Shannon. Shannon beveridge" I says and shake her hand. "Well it's nice meeting you Shannon. But have you seen a girl named Alex around here?" She ask and I nod. "Pappicio? The hella funny one. She's upstairs sleeping" I say remembering some of the interactions I had with her and all I have seen was both of us getting so drunk. I hold her by her hand and I feel this weird feeling go through my body. Please don't be feelings. Please don't be feelings. I show her to Alex and she is passed out on the bed. Then the rest of the night was kinda a blur. All I remember is I walked Cari to her car and said I'll see her again.

--next morning--
I wake up with a bad hangover to the point where I cannot get out of without the pain going throughout my whole body. I crawl over to my bathroom and find pain pills and take them. After awhile I could stand up and tolerate the pain going through my body. I walk into the living room and see Cammie editing her video in our couch. "Hey babe" I say and she continues working. I try to sit right next to her but she just moves away. "Did I do something wrong?" I ask and she stares at me. "I wake up 6 in the morning to see pictures of you holding Cari Fletcher's hand. Are you cheating on me?!?!?" She yells. "No, I was just helping her find her friend. You know I wouldn't cheat on you" I say and try to grab her hand but she moves them away. "Shannon, I just need some space" she says and I stand up. "Space? Wasn't one month of space good enough. We don't do anything anymore. We don't go on dates, we don't talk to each other, we don't even cuddle anymore. Cammie, I love you but it feels like the feeling isn't mutual" I say and walk into our room. I grab a bag and start putting some of my clothes inside. I walk back out and she's standing by the door. "Where do you think you're going?" She asks and I stop in front of her. "I'm giving you the space you need. You can go back to your editing, I'm not dealing with this right now" I say and walk out the door. I got to my car and realize I forgot my car keys. I leave my stuff and run up stairs. I go in the apartment quietly and don't see Cammie in the living room. I sigh and get my keys and go. Once I get into my car I immediately break down. What am I going to do? I call Ally and ask if I could crash at her house for awhile. After calming down I drive over to ally's and I see her waiting outside for me with her arms wide open. "Come tell daddy what happened?" She says and I cry in her arms. "Stop calling yourself daddy you weirdo" I give a weak laugh and we go into her house. "So what happened?" She asks as we sit across of each other in the living room. "Cam thinks I cheated on her. I was helping this girl Cari Fletcher find her friend and I guess someone got a pic of us and sent it to her" I say and ally gives me a shocked look. "You mean Cari Fletcher, The singer?" She asks and I bid my head yes. "It wasn't even like that. I don't know als, you know how our relationship has been, I think I'm gonna break up with her" I say and feel my heart break a bit. "Do what you gotta do, do what makes you happy" she says. I get back into my car and drive over there to get it over with.

I knock on the door and a unfamiliar girl answers it. "Who are you?" I ask and she slams the door in my face. I open the door to see Cammie and the girl moving around the room. "So me helping a girl look for her friend is way worse than you actually cheating on me? Is this the reason why you were so distant? That you didn't want do anything with me because you had someone else?!" I yell with tears the verge of falling. "Shannon it's just wasn't working out between us anymore so I found Kara and I guess things just happened" she says like nothing just happened. "For three and a half years I loved you endlessly, I gave you everything. But now I hate myself for letting myself fall deeply in love with each and every day. Even when I started noticing you were acting up I let myself look at the good parts of our relationship. You and your girlfriend could stay here, I'm moving out" I say and grab as much of my things as I can. "Shannon I'm sorry" Cammie says as I reach the door. "I would've forgave you if you broke up with me before you started cheating but making me continue to love you while you didn't love me back is messed up" I walk out and get to my car. "I can't believe her!" I yell and rest my head on my steering wheel. I drive back to ally's house and just sit on the front lawn. I feel someone sit by me and puts their arm around my shoulder. "You good dude?" Ally asks and I shake my head no. "She cheated on me. I don't ever want to see her" I say and put my face into my hands. "Come on dude. We haven't hung out forever and as your best friend, I'm gonna make your life a lot better without her" she says and I smile. "What do you have in mind?" I ask and she smirks at me. "We're gonna go to the abbey and get drunk as hell while hanging out with some of our friends" she says and I hug her tight. "You're the best. I don't think I can get through this without you" I say and she laughs. "Come on let's get you cleaned up" she says and we walk into her house.

WOOAAAAAHHHH MY NEW STORY!!!!!! Fletcher will come in the next chapter but what do you guys think? My sequel wasn't doing too good and I don't know but it's just went to crap. Please do not take the break up part too seriously. Some people get way too offended and I don't want that. It's a story and it's made up. I support both relationships and I'm so happy for them. I hope you guys enjoy my new story and stick around to see what comes❤️
  -Stephanie✌️