Happiness In My Face And Sorrow In My Veins

No Pain Again

Got million questions running in my mind
Been told I'm too young I shouldn't mind
But due to that it's happiness I can't find
Now I'm starting to Grind
Grind for em' answers
None of em coming in
Should I start giving in
Bottling my feelings in
Hiding what I feel
Began to fall ill
Things getting hard I need a pill
Momma struggling to pay my bill
But he out there flexing and laughing
Living like he on the next level
While he buy gifts on next level
Acting like a rebel

Momma so independent
Gotta pay for many installments
I gotta face all the struggles
The pain
All I need is answers
If I were to young shouldn't I be happy
No I need to understand
They need to understand
That m willing to stand
Stand for what's true
Because I don't know where I should go
I ask and I'm told to go
Go where?,I don't know
I can't even say No

Oh no I'm breaking again
So young to be through such pain
The bond we share going to vain
Happiness on my face sorrow in my vein
Feeling tied by a chain
It feels like a war started in my brains
I'm scared I might cut my veins
Trying to end the pain
No I can't commit the same mistake again