So hey this is not a journal I mean it is my name is jack and I suffer from depression. The reason I am writing this in a journal is because I have no therapist and my parents do not know yet. You see actually no one knows because I pretend to be a really positive and happy person.
Entry 1:So hey*breaths in heavy then sighs*today was an actual good day but that does not change the fact that I have depression. I tried to stay happy today but during lunch I cried two little droplets and,....like always non of my friends noticed like normal. I am just an invisible boy in a school of thousands of kids even the teachers don't notice me. All they see is a nice happy 14 year old boy.
Entry 2:ok so I told my friend that I suffer from depression and she was surprised that I was not the happy person that I am on the outside. I still haven't told anyone that I cut and, I do not think I will for awhile my parents don't even know that I suffer from depression because I am always happy or act happy around them.
Entry 3: sorry I haven't typed anything in I think a week I told my parents about me cutting and my friend but my "friend" told a bunch of people at my school and now they make fun of me telling to go kill yourself and saying nobody loves you so just kill yourself. I feel like the entire world is against me and nobody does love I think there voices are starting to get to me.
Entry 4:*two more days went by with no typing* hey guys *breathes in sighs out* they found me on social media and my page is flooded with hate notes and notes saying some words I can't say and also they are spreading lies about me. I think I might actually do it.
Entry 5:it has been another week I really do not think I can take any more all of my friends have turned against me to I am not loved in my school anymore. What was once a boy who participated in everything is know nothing I can't do it this is going to be my last writing.
The next day after school jack is alone . He writes a note and grabs some pills in the cabinet.5:30pm mom gets home jack body is on the floor dead.
january 1 2000-august 30 2014
