so like, idk why i latch onto stuff sm like i don't get it n i kno it pisses everyone off n im constantly sending texts about shit n unsending them cos i kno im pissing people off but like. idk i just hav this obsession with having to anchor myself to things n maybe they're materialistic, maybe not, but i like devote myself to it n let it take over me a bit cos idk maybe it brings a little control. idk it gives me a bit of consistency i think and kinda stops me spending too much time in my head. but yh i feel like ppl r getting sick of me a bit. anyway.
