Issues

chapter 1

Some days I wish I was someone else. Someday I want to die. And someday I want to be something. I can't watch movies or read books or have boyfriend's. This all started when I was watching Twilight. I saw Bella and felt very different. Strange. Not myself. As the movie played on and I grew more and more envious, I'd compare myself to her. After I'd cut my wrist. I read the book and Bella's name came up often. The more angry and jealous I was, the more scars on me. My parents had enough of it so they took all of it away. Then they split, like that's gonna work. My friends were faked and pulled down my bra in front of my whole school. Every boy I dated wanted to get in my pants after that. I was getting better until he came. I started having flashbacks with him ever since then and they hurt painfully after. I hid it very well from him because he hates seeing me in pain. 
"Babe? Baby? Wake up." Joey says. What is he doing here. I open my eyes and immediately had a flashback.
~Flashback~
I was eating lunch alone as usual when he walked up.
"Is anybody sitting here?" His voice was so hot. I was afraid to look up.
"Umm..." I looked up. DANG!! I looked back down. "No."
"Can I sit here?"
"Umm...Sure. why not?" I smiled my fake smile.
"I'm Joey Birlem. I just moved here."
"I'm Sloane."
"Sloane." He said slowly. "I like it. It's unique." I laughed.
"Let me guess..." Pretending to think. "Fuckboi."
"No but let me guess. Loner." He mocked me.
Gasp "Who told you."  I laughed and he chuckled. Woah that was kinda hot.
"Do you you want to hang out?" He asked.
~Flashback end~
"Oww!" I rub my head.
"Are you alright my love?"
"Yeah I'm fine." I forgot I spent the night at his house.
"Want to watcha movie?" He asked.
"No I'm good." I felt bad for always letting him down for the movies. But I had to.
"Did I do something wrong?" Please don't start crying.
"Shhh. Don't worry. It wasn't you, I just...hate movies." I say softly.
"Okay good because I love you Sloane Grace Campbell."
"And i love you Joey Matthew Birlem." I kissed him and left.