The change.

It all starts

Is it really necessary to have friends all the time? Maybe not. My transition from grade tenth to eleventh has been remarkable, and it sure is weird myself saying it so. From what I have seen, many times, what you go through, what you actually feel stays with you. What comes out is a mere thought filtered by the unconscious oneself. I would not use this platform to talk much about the psychology but the transition.

My case, since childhood was absolutely different. I always had a companion, during my infancy, my sister, cousins who lived with us. Once my cousins shifted to Bombay, my 'social factor' broke down just at the age of six. The time when I couldn't even spell the word social. During that phase, my mother put me in a dance class for which I'm most thankful today. Since then, my evenings were busy going to dance class, piano, abacus and the list is unending. Now, so many classes meant a lot of people, more interaction, and most importantly, the urge to be with someone; have a constant companion. This was the biggest factor which led me now to where I am.

At the age of six, I could make friends, I could connect to them and also attach myself. Little did I know that this will give me the one thing which I lacked, a real friend. So, my journey of friendship which I embarked upon in grade 1 was with this special person. She Is a special case like me. We ate together, for a brief period of time, we went to dance class together and in grade 1 got punished together too. And slowly to this friendship, three more were added. I don't know what to call them. People, or animals, friends? They are too special for being tagged anything, but a part of me. The five of us are as thick as anything possible. I did meet other people too, who changed me. From a vague and disconnected person, they made me into a sorted one. It is always said that the female civilises the male, but here the case was other way round. So now, by the end of tenth standard, I had my 4 girls, and these 2 boys who helped me stand.

Since the start of this write up, I have been trying to convey just one thing, that my constant dependency on friends has now made me unable to stand on my own. They keep pushing me upwards, unknowingly. Even they are unaware of it. That is the basic meaning of friendship, isn't it?

So time passed, I got done with tenth, and boards, and suddenly there was a wave in me where friends were the most important thing. Day in and day out all I thought about was them. Forgot my family. And every person who just gets out of the rut of tenth, will go through this phase. It is what we say, "we will never meet each other". I now laugh at the irony of the statement. Well, the truth, from what I have learnt is that, people who really love you will never leave you. We might go for days or months without talking to each other but then when we do, the same feeling of comfort still dwells in that relationship.

Friends, constitute the most important part of my life, but for me, there is no need of constantly obsessing over it. They will always be there.