Words

Gone

She stares at herself in the mirror

reminiscing past memories

she wanted to feel beautiful

and wanted from those who wanted nothing with her

what did she do wrong?

she didn't want that man to taint her soft skin

a naive child she was, but ironic is it?

she saw her father beat up her mother

her father intoxicated with other women,

her mother begging her father not to touch her

but his hand slid under her dress

maybe fate wanted her to feel what her mother had felt,

vulnerable, dirty and worthless

so many words that can substitute

yet what word can define her emotions

if it sets a limit

The other kids laughed at her

without realizing the damage she already took

she listened to every word, but a wrong move that was

that girl she thought was cool punched her and made fun of her everyday

the guy she could trust left scared

the girl she considered as a sister spread rumors

the people she thought she could rely on abandoned her to join the crowd

she became the laughing stock,

she couldn't take it anymore

she decided to act the pain out

her mother decided that on her birthday,

it was important to force her daughter to eat off the floor like the worthless dog she is

the tears spilling out her eyes didn't faze her

she pushed her onto the ground waiting impatiently for the girl to eat the brownies she dropped

she yelled at her for being a dirty girl,

the father came to the rescue

the girl stood in shocked as her father defended her, and when he stared at her she ran

she tried killing herself, but someone found out

as the police came she was almost knocked out

those different pills she took were in her system

she wanted to leave because she knew how weak she was

despite time spent at that hospital

she still remained the dull numb girl on heavy medications

the people at school now murmur and give pity looks

the hyper party beth wasn't real, it was a way for her to hide her pain

she faked everything, and she couldn't anymore as her mother's coworker tried molesting her

she couldn't anymore and she ran

she ran away from the town to a new town she only glimpsed when the sun was out

the problems she ran from came back

no matter how much she tried to forget, her past came to torment her

her mother still came to insult her

she feels like running again, but where?

maybe a large town to stay invisible, or maybe under the soft moist grass

either way, she's gone