The Diary of Emma Swan

Chaper 1 ~ The meeting

"Y-Your Henry's birth mother?" The gorgeous brunette asked.  "Hi." I said with a sigh.

That's how it started. How my life got flipped upside down. I met her and everything changed. If I could take it all back. I wouldn't. I would go through everything again. The heartbreak, the pain, and the joy. Let's not get too ahead of ourselves. I'm Emma Swan and this is my- well my diary. Yes I kept one even though it's childish as all hell. I have a diary and in this is everything. Every thought I will and have had. So yeah let's get started. I met Regina on my 28th birthday. Henry had snuck out and come to New York to get me. And that's how I'm here.  That's how it started. One question and a 'hi'. I'd rather skip all the other stuff and get to it. When I knew that I was in love with the mayor of StoryBrooke.

"Regina, I want you to meet-" I started but was cut off. "Marian. Marian?" It was Robin. Did he know her? "Robin?" Marian asked. Robin walked up to her. "I thought you were dead." He said shock in his voice as his and Marian's eyes filled with tears. "I thought I'd never see you again." He said as he took her into an embrace. "And I you." She said. I looked over to Regina. She was staring at Marian and Robin tears pooling in her eyes as well. But these weren't tears of joy. Was I missing something?

"Mama?" Roland ask. I look at him as everything clicked. No no no no no. I didn't just ruin Regina's chance at a happy ending. Please tell me I'm wrong. That it's not Robins wife I brought back. Please.  

"Roland, oh my baby!" Marian said pulling Roland into a hug. Regina was still looking at them. Sadness in her eyes.  She looked at me.

"You." Regina said. She was so sad and she seemed angry but was trying to control it. I felt so awful! I felt like bursting  into tears but at the same time I felt something, somewhere in my heart, become lighter. I felt joy. For a fraction of a second before Regina started speaking again. Her voice breaking. Which made my heart break. "You did this."

I felt something get stuck in my throat. I didn't want to cry in front of everyone. I couldn't. But I couldn't find the right words either.
"I just wanted to save her life." I ended up saying but it sounded like I was under water. 

"Your just like your mother - never thinking of consequences." Her voice sounded different. Deeper than what I'm used to. Maybe it's the anger in it or just the pure hatred but something changed in her I could see it. "I didn't know." I heard myself trying to amend but I knew it wouldn't work. "Of course you didn't." She looked at me with hate in her eyes. I could feel my heart break again and again the pain not ending. "Well, you just better hope to hell you didn't bring anything else back." She said before walking out of Granny's and into the night.

I looked over at Robin and his little family. Why did it hurt so much. Why did I feel relived that I knew Robin wasn't gonna be with her anymore. Dammit!! I knew why. And this was not good. It hurt when she looked at me with so much hate because I love her. I felt joy when I knew Robin wasn't gonna be with her because I love her. And all those times I saw them together I felt pain and anger because I liked her. But at that moment I knew that I didn't just like her. I LOVE REGINA MILLS. And I realized that I need to go after her.

Okay then. This is my first
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