The life of Buffy.
This is a story of a friend of a friend. I never knew her but she's still a very important part of my life. A very important part in many people's life. My friend here, his name was Michael known to many as "Epickid." He met Brianna during a horrible time in his life, being emotionally hurt, he was thinking about ending his life. He was on Mii Verse (a form of social media known to people who own the wii u) and having a emotional breakdown when three simple words changed his life. Brianna came into his life with a simple text saying " I like u", However he didn't see it right away due to a long conversation with another person. When he did see it, she made small talk, drew him some pictures, anything to cheer up someone she barely knew. Upon finding out that Michael was making to give up life she frantically tried to talk him out of it, talking to him until 3 am the next morning. They reluctantly bid farewell, both having to get up for school a few hours later. She was there waiting for him when he got up, making sure everything was ok, being silly to make him laugh, and drawing these amazing pictures. Brianna's screen name was Buffy but she let Michael know her birth given name. When he returned home she texted him and like every other cliche movie couple, they role played their "thrilling tale of romance." Now Brianna was an amazing person with many perks. She was th captain of the cheer squad, an art prodigy, in college at the age of sixteen. But after a couple of days, I notice that she would change the way she talked, as if she was becoming a completely different person. Now i wasn't the only one who noticed this, Michael did too. When confronted about the peculiar concept she claimed it was her lesbian roommate Xing who had been talking the moment before. At first we figured it to be bipolarness, but it was if she were two different people. She also had Asperger's, which explained why her text was jumbled up at times. Now, as much as Michael was having a hard time, Brianna was right up that road, being emotionally depressed and such. Having just broken up with her ex after discovering that he cheated on her, I suppose she was sick of him, not only did he cheat, but he abused her as well. She resorted to self-harm, cutting her wrists and losing a lot of blood. She stopped for a while but then Michael got into a heated argument with a close friend of mine. She got upset and cut again, ending up in the hospital, due to loss of blood. Both her ex, Kris, and Xing were there and the stayed talking till 4 am that night. It was that night that we suspected she was hiding something. It was one of two things. Either she was lying or she had a split personality. Most visiting hours end at eight pm so how were Kris and Xing there until four in the morning? The next day, after she was released, Michael and I recieved a text from Xing. "Brianna and Kris got into a fight and he has kidnapped her." That night they were back and when we tried to pry some answers from her she would avoid our questions at all costs. She would disappear at random times, only for Kris to show up five seconds later and belittle Michael. Brianna started replying to our messages less, hanging out with younger kids, ages 5-10, playing slender man or pretending to being killed. She would show up late in the night to tell Michael she loved him, then would disappear into the unknown, yet again. He tried talking to her about everything, the sudden lack of attention, the showing up then disappearing, kris, everything. Yet still she ignored it. Then one day, out of no where, she messaged us, "I'm bleeding from the eyes and going to the doctor." One time when i tleeding from her eyes and that she was going to the doctor , 15 mins she was back and they did test to find out what was wrong. Again lying but i went with it. this went on for 3 more days, Kris belittle me, playing with her 10 year old friends and only But she avoided it writing to me at 11pm with one or 2 lines. was getting tired of this. so i asked my friend emily why would buffy ignore me all the time and be mean to me, she told me that for a girls put of view, maybe it was buffys way of telling me that she wanted to spend more time with friends her age and not 13 year. little did i know that Emily was in love with me, but that later on. so i wrote buffy a nice letter basically saying that i loved her, and i was ok if she wanted to break up and be with other older boys, that it was ok and i would understand, and still over. At no time i told her that i wanted to break up, i left it up to her. She told it wrong and thought that i was breaking up with her. This time i knew she was lying and caught her. Her friend xling told me she was cutting and depress and locked herself in the room, i ask to talk to buffy, but then kris shows up and starts to be little me. then xling back on accusing me of cheating on buffy. i kept asking to talk to buffy, but then xling said that she jump out the window of the dorm and was in coma, at the hospital, all this happened with in 10 mins . i said that enough i told who every im txting that this is all a big lie, after at 5 to 10 mins of silence , a new person appears. Buffys mom, telling me that buffy as a freshmen project she did 10 years ago, the she got friends to play the part of kris and xling, told her that didn't make sense since the mom was 28 why repeat something she did when she was in college ? she then change her story again. Now buffy was real but in a coma for the last 10 years and she was living buffy life thur me and miiverse, so if she every woke up from her coma, she could tell her how her life would have been. i didnt by that one either, so next thing i know, it buffy, she was trapped by her mother and free herself, by this time i just shut down and went crazy, couldnt think straight, was having trouble breathing, the whole 2 ½ weeks with buffy was a complete lie. i felt so alone and hurt, thats when emily come in and tells me she had a crush on me and that she loved me too.
That night was the most strange night of my life, buffy was not real, 1st she was in 16 year old college student , then in coma , then a story made up by a 28 year girl, then back to coma and 28 year old mother making up stories so when buffy ever woke up, they can tell user how her life was. Then two top that off, her best friend, the one that told me I should breakup with buffy, tell me she loves me. Too much for me to handle, so I shut down. Even after all this, I found myself totally alone, and had to have her back. Even if she was a total lie, I wanted to be part of the lie. So that next day, left her msgs in all her posting, that I forgave her, and that if she still wanted to be my girlfriend to let me know. That night, true to form, she text me with a simple , "HI" I asked her if she still wanted to me by GF and she said yes. But this time I made some rules. 1. No lying 2. Talk to me, none of this small talk. She said yes. She ask me to call her Alice, cause she loved Alice in wonderland. We started off wrong already, the 1st lie. She was put in a new foster home , moved to Baltimore and was 15 and a freshman in high school. I know that was a line the 2nd day, I live 86 miles from Baltimore , they had 14 in of snow, I asked Alice if she had school that day and she said yes, then I asked her didn't u get snow and she said no. For the 1st 2 days, she would txt me and we talked about what she did that day, what she was feeling, I finally got to know her a little. But then she was back again with her 10 years old group, again playing those slendarman games and pretending that someone was killing them. Then she introduce to her "6 year old foster sister" everything "she would talk" can't remember her name, she would type all the words wrong, by 1 or 2 letters off, ya right. The next 3 days she was not texting me and playing with her gang. Friday was valentine's she told me how much she loved that day, so I made sure to make it special for her. I drew some roses for her, left her a nice poem, then waited for her to response. Nothing she spend the whole night playing with her 10y friends not responding to any of my txts. At the same time, my good friend Kimberly (sky) came back from a 2 week ban. On the day she was banned, she told me she liked me a lot, but 2 late, I was with buffy. I would not cheat on buffy. So Friday when she came back, her BF broke up with her, so at midnight she tells me, ask her out b4 someone else does. So I did. So I now had no choice but to break up with buffy. It was a one person relationship anyway. I felt so guilty , doing it, 1st time in my life that I had to do that. But I had to do it. It still hurts me to know what I did, because she went crazy on me, and sky in miiverse and go herself banned. She had changed her name to malice and went after us, or I thought. I decided to look at some of her posting and it turns out that she got another boyfriend 5 mins after reading my text. She also told the new BF that her name was Rose.
And now even after all this, I still care about her and now have to find her when she gets back, so I can see that she is ok, and try to know who she really is, cause she is now a part of me and of who I am. Not a single day goes by that i don't think of her, and when i do, i get depress and have the urge to want to cry. U touched Brianna.
i dedicate this to you Brianna , this says it all.
Say something, I'm giving up on you i'll be the one, if you want me to
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I am feeling so small
It was over my head
I know nothing at all
And I will stumble and fall
I'm still learning to love
Just starting to crawl
Say something, I'm giving up on you
I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
Anywhere I would've followed you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I will swallow my pride
You're the one that I love
And I'm saying goodbye
Say something, I'm giving up on you
And I'm sorry that I couldn't get to you
And anywhere I would've followed you (Oh-oh-oh-oh)
Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something, I'm giving up on you
Say something...
