I hate days like this. It's too quiet, too bright. I've got nothing to do.
I'm used to the rush of a busy day. I don't like it, don't get me wrong, but I don't like this either. People tell you over and over to find what makes you happy. Why is it so hard? Everything I do has consequences. Everything I don't do has consequences.
I've got 2 weeks off school. The last couple of days have been a struggle, I didn't feel like I could cope another hour. But I made it, maybe it was the promise of a chocolate egg or maybe it was the resting days I have ahead. Rest. Weird word. I've never really known the meaning of it. To relax. But what is the meaning of that? It feels like somebody is watching. When I walk home, if nobody else is around, I stop and talk to it. Maybe it is nothing. Maybe my imagination.
I feel things, things i can't explain. I don't see or hear them. I feel like they are there. I don't tell anyone, god no. They will mock me, say I'm delusional. But I've never really known why I think it's there.
You know Tyler Joesph told people about what a kitchen sink meant to him. He said people needed to find something that only they understand. And that was his thing.
Maybe it is my thing. Shadows. Not a shadow you would find next to you on a sunny day. But ones that hide, unseen. Ones that mean a great deal to me. I'm not yet quite sure why. No one seems to understand. And I don't know if I do either.
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Mystery / ThrillerMaybe this doesn't have meaning to you, maybe it doesn't to me either. Life is full of secrets. And my thoughts are the most secret of all. Maybe you're thinking that if I wrote it down and published it, it wouldn't be secret. But you are wrong. Wha...