You know you're addicted when you say 'this is the last time'
But is it really the last time?
Last cut.
Last drink
Last toke.
Last purge.
Whatever you're addicted to I promise it'll take over your life.
I only truly found myself in the abuse I made to myself.
All the times I dragged the blade across my skin, all the times I drank to numb the pain, got high because it felt like heaven, purged so I wouldn't gain.
But out of all my addictions.
My worst was you.
I found some sort of happiness in you.
I started pouring my everything into you.
I lost myself in you.
You were my everything.
My hope.
I started losing all the other troubling addictions because you were there.
You.
You never loved me.
Quickly you were gone.
When I lost you everything and more came back.
You may think drugs, alcohol, blades, eating disorders, antidepressants and sleeping pills could be the worst addictions.
But really;
The worst addiction of all is
You.
(B.C)
