My Stoner Diary

Entry 1 - The Stress.

Starting out in life is hard, it's lonely, it stings so bad you can feel it in your soul. You see, normally I get blazed and just vibe; today, however, I am super down.

I think our fridge has finally taken a shit. I want to move. I want to move so badly. I need the fresh start. A new perspective... Caleb doesn't see that of course.

And of course I'm letting him make the desicion for us. I'm letting another person decide my fate. I always put myself last...yet the other day he called me selfish... Maybe Amie is right...maybe he's not the one.

I always imagined my true love to be the type of person to follow me to the ends of the earth and back. The kind that runs and catches you at the gate of the airport kind of love, you know?

I always get stuck like this. Just this once I hope I'm wrong, just this one time I hope he decides to chase my dream with me...I don't know. Don't I deserve that much after everything that's happened?

I'm just so stressed out...