New Beginnings

Chapter One: Starting Point

James had broken my heart, there is no doubt about it. I felt so vulnerable and weak, and I have since the first time I fell in love. I suck at relationships, I can't handle situations the way I should and I always loved the wrong guys. Well, at some point I thought it really was James, but that time when I knew he cheated on me, made me realize that it wasn't him. Duh. James wasn't the one for me, and the thought had made me strong.

It was chilly, a few minutes after midnight and I was sitting on the sidewalk in front of James's house. I came there to surprise him, but sure enough, I was the one who's surprised. He was alone in that house with another girl, Jessica, whom by the way was my best friend in freshman year. God knows what they were doing in there. I was young, I was in sophomore year, the same as James and Jessica. I saw Jessica first because she opened the door and she looked startled as she saw me. James didn't know that I came back two days early from my trip to Paris for a fashion show, and I wanted to see him that night because my parents were fighting, yeah, real mature. but to top it all off, everything just went from worse to worst.

"Jessica?" I asked, holding back tears. She obviously couldn't make some excuse because I caught her off-guard.

"Who's at the door, babe?" I heard James shout from the kitchen. "Babe!" he called again, and when he couldn't stand it anymore he came to the front door.

"Oh, hey, baby you're back!" he said nervously as he hugged me.

"Who do you think you are to still hug me right here, right now?" I said, pushing him away.

"It's not what you think."

"What do you want me to think?"

"She's just a friend!" he almost shouted.

"And I call my friends "Babe" too? Enough of this bullshit, James. It's over."

"No, Violet, I..."

"No, James. Whatever your reason is, I don't want to hear it." I said and glared at Jessica. She was sobbing as I turned around and said, "You two are pathetic."

"Fine! I never loved you anyway! You were just part of a bet I made with my friends!"

What James had said hit my heart like a big, red fire truck. He didn't follow me when I walked away. I don't expect him to, no matter what the reason is, I believe that if you love someone, even if he or she's away, you'll still be loyal to him/her. He's been sweet to me when we were dating, we dated for six months and he made me feel like I'm the most special girl, and that everything we had was special, and right here, right now, all of that was made bullshit. He slammed the door behind me and Jessica was still inside with her. This led me here behind the bushes, crying. I wanted to crush something, I wanted to expel all this anger and sadness in me, and I took a deep breath, stood up and walked to the park. The park was empty, just as I needed it to be. I sat on the swing, thinking. It's not worth it to cry over someone who doesn't care about you. It's a waste of time to care for people who obviously didn't want to stay in your life.

"Hey." I was surprised by a voice, screamed and fell off the swing, landing my butt with a thud. Ouch.

"Oh, sorry I didn't mean to startle you." He said as he helped me get on my feet. "I just saw that you were alone and maybe you were lost or something."

I lifted my head and saw that it was my crush from school, Seth Henderson, a junior, in front of me. I have adored Seth since I was in middle school, but he never noticed me. I was the bucked-toothed girl who tripped in front of everybody while dancing ballet, but maybe they all forgot about that. My face went from being in the North Pole, to the heat in Miami, Florida. "I- I'm fine, thanks. I just needed to breathe out here."