My Journal

To Mom

One day you will see this mom you will be reading this so here goes im a HUGE Fuck up who doesn't deserve shit dang I can't even remember long enough to feed the dogs, I realize why I'm not your favorite why you choose dylan. Dylan's perfect he's not like me. Dang I can't even stop myself from crying when anyone yells at me, you want to know why because I'm scared of disappointing you or anyone I'm scared of life I have no escape. So yes I occupy myself with my phone when I'm home because 1 im scared im going to dissapoint you for doing something wrong . I know know why you love him more. He is perfect the one you always wanted he is your first kid so you decided to have anougher kid maby you'd get another good one nope stuck with me. I may look fine on the outside but my insides are tearing apart. Hey Mom maby if you stop occupying yourself with your boyfreind who hates my guts and my brother who hates me too maby you would see my emotional level or my confident level but even if you did you most likely wouldn't care. To my "loving mother"

Alyssa sun,March,26,2017,age is 13