Brother's can be your back bone, or they can be the ones to break your back. My brother was defintley not my back bone...
If I could go back and change one thing it would be not telling people sooner what my brother was doing to me. My brother would touch me in places he shouldn't have touched me. At the time I was seven and I didn't really understand what was happening. I was too innocent at the time. Eventually though I did start catching on to the reality of my situation. I would think over and over again that I should tell someone, but I didn't want my big brother to get hurt. I didn't want anything to happen to him. Therefore, I didn't tell anyone anything.
This cotinued for four years until I finally told someone. I told my best friend and my boyfriend, Keegan. He held me when I cried into his arms, my whole world shattering down. I just lay there for an hour crying, pouring my heart out to the one person I hoped would understand. I made him promise not to tell anyone, I could tell it hurt him to promise me that considering because of this I was getting hurt so much. He promised though. When I felt down about it I would cry to him and he looked even more hurt than I did. He was constantly mad at my brother, then again who could blame him?
One day I got in trouble so my mom did what any mom does now and days... She took away my phone. What I forgot to do was delete texts between Keegan and I. She proceeded to ask me what was going on between my brother and me, and I told her. I didn't tell her the full story though. I wasn't allowed to see my brother ever again and he got grounded and he had to go to counseling. The second part pained me because I didn't want anything to happen to him, even though he ruined my life.
I really wish I would've told everything the first time, because now I can't see my dad at all. My mom found out the whole story by going through my phone again. She found out that I have nightmares about this. She thinks my dad didn't do his job as a dad, so now I can't see him.
If I could go back and change one thing it would have to be that I didn't tell anyone the full story sooner. If I would've then I could be sitting at my dad's today watching tv with him. Instead I decided not to tell anyone, but my boyfriend. I do regret this more than anything in my entire life. I wish I could go back and change it just to see my dad again.
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