THE RAW TRUTH

short story

*Internal monologue*

"I don't get it."

"I had enough of this I have stayed silent for too long."

"Now listen to the uproar in my heart, listen to my intents."

"We are stubborn; we get a high from stubbornness. Only we are aware of your true worth!"

"The game that you have started, you shall lose. For how long are you going to throw stones thinking we are breakable glass?"

"My blood is boiling trough my veins; listen to it, feel it"

"All I see is red, red, red"

"If you hit me once I will hit you a thousand times. Do you think I can easily be damaged good?"

"My every bullet has you name across it and beware I never miss my target"

"I don't know how to bend, I don't know treachery. But I promise you one thing I will finish you."

"The Force in me is a rebellion, it's madness, it's martyrdom, it's a craziness"

"Force is a voice. Your voice, my voice. Voice of all of us."

"If my kind shouts together the whole world will listen, power will be shattered and ripped away and they will listen to us. So let's shout."

*End of internal monologue*

'Obey, serve and eliminate'

'Obey, serve and eliminate'

'Obey, serve and eliminate'

It has been drilled into me, like a never ending dripping tap.

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All I got was the name KK. My next supposed partner, I don't care anyways it's not like they are going to survive long. Anyone who has been with me ends up getting killed, one way or another. So I just don't understand I can't work alone- it's better that way, for me and the person.

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I despise the chief, the officials, the council and this goddammit government. I tell you every one of them can go rot in hell. This all started as patriotism, serving your country and doing people justice. Now it has turned into greed, wealth and power and I am afraid; that I am just a pawn in this game of power. Truth be told it is just bloodshed everywhere. They took away my humanity, my hope and my heart- they took it away from all of us.

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My best friend, my partner was labelled as a traitor. My friend was the best of the best; served his country proud but look where it got him now. The whole country spits at his name and many others like him but only I know the truth, only I know why they are labelled as traitors. Now if KK or I die we will also be labelled the same - TRAITORS. Just like Omelas, citizens believe we serve to achieve a utopian future except we ourselves know; we are just like child; buried deep inside Omelas. When the secrets are out, the citizens will realise the dystopian world they live and the suffering one has to go through forced upon by higher authorities who attain the power.

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This is the epitome of ennui. I am seated on the plane back from the latest killing, along with my new apprentice. The futility of murdering someone is just dawning upon her now, guess she never killed before. To be honest I don't have time to waste on crap like this.

"Get over it, it's just murder, you're going to stain your pure hands a lot from now on. Just get used to it."

"How can you say that, especially after you murdered innocent people? This is just cruel."

This is so fucking cliché. Wannabee princess doesn't want to get her hands dirty.

"Then why don't you go and sit on your royal chair, your highness and demand us to do the dirty work for you. If you don't like this field of work you shouldn't have signed up, you should be on your way and be seated behind a computer like the weakling you are."

This is exactly why I work solo. I don't want to waste time on stuck up asses like her. Stupid, thinks this was going to be an easy job.

"I am sorry I wasn't trained for these types of situations, I'm just not used to all these killings"

"Then what the heck where you trained for, sitting with terrorists playing tea party?"

There we go again the water works have started again. I am done with this bullshit.

"If you want to survive in this lifestyle, you need to feel no remorse- it's the way we do things. No one is going to pity you as if you are a five year old. So just stop crying, I don't want to hear you pathetic sniffling."

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Why are we classified as traitors to our own country when captured or deceased, when all we did was serve our nation rightfully? Why are the chiefs, officials, the council and government sitting on the high throne without feeling any pain being inflicted on them. They don't what it is like to look into a person's eye, watching their life diminish out of them knowing you are the sole reason why. They don't know the battles we have to go through, the pain we endure. They don't know what it is like losing you r loved ones. Finally they don't know what it feels like when you are deemed a TRAITOR in front of you nation that you sacrificed your blood for. All they know is to control us like puppets on like a string for their mere advantage, spiralling in the power- that is now vested upon them.

The world I live in there is no right or wrong, it's a you live or die situation every day, every hour, every minute, every second. For this I mercilessly kill, I bring chaos upon the paths that I walk- sheer destruction. I choose to kill without being killed. This all just a game of chess and I know how to end this game, after all I am Agent 95.

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