ALPHAS OF REMORSE SERIES #1: The Blue-eyed Alpha

Kabanata 21

He sighed. Maya-maya ay pumwesto siya sa harapan ko saka niya hinawakan ang aking pisngi. 

"No, you're not. I'm sorry I let someone make you feel that way," he said while his eyes flickered with sincerity.

My heart swelled as I flashed a weak smile. "I'm really trying. I swear, I do."

"And I can see that." He caressed my cheek with his thumb. "Why don't I train you instead, hmm?"

"But you're busy."

He smiled. "I will always have time for you, luv."

My heart banged loudly inside my chest when Levi made me turn and face the target. I even had to hold my breath when he started adjusting my body's position. 

"Focus on the target. Imagine someone running towards you to attack us. Bring out the Tracy who was tough enough to become bitchy towards me when I tried to flirt with her in the border," he said under his breath before he placed his hands on my waist. 

Lalo lang tuloy lumakas ang tibok ng aking puso. Does he even know that his presence makes it harder for me to focus?!

Lumunok ako. "M-Maybe you should take a few step backwards."

Kahit hindi ko siya direktang tingnan ay alam kong kumurba ang mga labi niya dahil sa aking sinabi. "Why, hmm?" His thumb stroked my lower ribs. "Am I distracting you?"

"Y-Yes," pag-amin ko.

"Too bad," he said in a breathy way before he lowered his head until his lips are nearly brushing against my ear. "We have to get used to this. We have to protect each other during bloodbaths." He planted a tender kiss on my cheek. "Now pull the trigger, luv. Make me proud . . ."

Humugot na lamang ako ng hininga't sinubukang mag-focus sa target. He's right. Sooner or later, I'm going to experience fighting with him. Gaya ng sinabi niya, kailangan ko siyang protektahan mula sa harapan. I wouldn't be able to do that if I'd let his effect on me control my focus.

Levi trained me since that day. It wasn't easy at first. Nahihirapan akong mag-focus dahil nakaka-distract naman talaga ang presensya ni Levi. 

I don't think it's just because we're mates and the sexual tension between us is naturally strong according to Tina. Tingin ko ay may iba pang dahilan na hindi ko pa lamang handang tanggapin sa ngayon dahil pakiramdam ko ay masyadong mabilis na nangyari ang mga bagay-bagay.

Rouge courted me for a couple years. Even when we're already together, I never felt this attracted towards him. Pero kay Levi . . .

I sighed when I remembered how much he affected me during our first encounter at the entrance of Astrid. Hindi ko pa alam na may koneksyon kaming dalawa ay iba na ang epekto niya sa aking sistema.

"Kumusta ang trainings mo, Tracy?" tanong ni Papa nang makababa ako pagkatapos maligo at magpatuyo ng buhok.

Napabuntonghininga ako. "Maybe I'm not really meant to be a hunter, Papa. Nahihiya na ako kay Levi dahil wala pa akong target na nasasapul."

Sumandal si Papa sa island counter. "What weapon have you been using?"

"A shotgun."

"Have you considered using a crossbow? Your mother was really good at it."

Napaisip ako. "Maybe I'll try that tomorrow, Papa." 

Lumakad ako palapit sa oven. I wore my mittens and pulled out the cupcakes I baked earlier.

"Para kanino ang mga 'yan?" usyoso ni Papa.

"Kay Levi, Papa. Pa-thank you ko sa pag-train niya sa akin." I started putting the cupcakes in a box. "I'll bring these to him."