Drowning Sorrows

Rin's Sorrow

Zexal-chan: Hey guys, guess I finally made it in the Blue/Ao no Exorcist fandom. Please take care of me! This is my first time writing angst so sorry if it's really crappy-

Rin: All your stories are crappy you-

Zexal-chan: you realise this is my fic and I have power over you and I can twist the world as you knew it like Bon turning into a rooster, or your 'princess' dying, but for now just do the disclaimers

Rin *grumbling: Fine, Zexal-chan doesn't own me or my story, that belongs to Kazue Kāto, and she probably doesn't own this idea either-*looks at list*- Huh? Why would they need to? What's going on in this story? All right fine Zexal-chan wants you to know that there are suicide attempts, depression etc. And doesn't want people to be triggered, so just putting that out there. Oh well, let's get on

P.S The song I chose: Kagayaku Sora No Shijima ni Wa by Kalafina I thought it would fit with this one-shot, it's one of my favourite endings from Kuroshitsuji and made me cry the first time I heard it. Let's actually get on now.

aO nO eXoRcIsT

Attempting to get through a normal day at True Cross Academy was beginning to prove extremely difficult for Rin, the exorcist classes, even more so. Everyone had completely avoided him since finding out he was a demon, and honestly Rin couldn't take it anymore. Predominantly it was the hardest thing for him to try and do, pretend all was right in the world when everyone he had upmost faith in stared at him as if he would set fire on them at any second. Once upon a time he would've been able to confide Yukio, his younger brother was the world to him, but know Yukio must've realised, Rin's secret was out he probably figured he had no reason to protect Rin any more besides all of was just because of his promise to their father all those years ago. That's what Rin kept telling himself every night as he replayed the harsh subliminal words of his classmates and and former friends, letting the weight fall upon his shoulders and create harsh deep wounds mentally just like they had hearing them in person.

But the hardest. Bon. That boy who had once been so determined on letting Rin know he could accept help from his 'friends' was now treating Rin as if he were some sort of vile and dangerous animal, a monster capable of suddenly snapping and killing them all in an instant. This was what he had wanted to know wasn't it? Granted he hadn't found out the way Rin had hoped for but wasn't he also the one who had once told Rin that friends should be there for each other? Wasn't he the one who told him all of that?

Maybe Bon had been lying? Or perhaps, perhaps Rin's secret was so horrific, so earth-shattering that all the latter had previously stated about their friendship had become completely void and now Bon was acting as if he had never uttered a thing about them being friends, as if the word was completely foreign when describing what was now their 'relationship'. Once again, pretending Rin was alright with this newfound situation was proving almost worse than he himself found out he was a demon.

" OKUMURA!" He snapped out and immediately turned his head to Yukio, of course, since his secret was out he had no reason to pretend to be nice, although for the most part it was also Rin's fault for zoning out and not paying attention, but the added stress of his emotions buzzing frantically like a herd of coal tars and the conspicuous whispers and murmurs of his class, Rin couldn't help himself.

Yukio stared at him, his face contorted to an expression beyond pissed, staring at him with an expression full of utter rage as he shouted out at Rin some random crap that he tuned out as he looked straight into his teal eyes.

Why? Why me? Why am I the one who people fear and not Yukio? We're both the sons of Satan aren't we, so why am I the one treated like a freak and he isn't?