my light

one shot story

Beejay, i miss you no matter how much i got hurt being with you. I miss you more than you'd ever understand.

Thank you for being my light, i had no idea what was coming but up until it actually happened. You saved me and i can never thank you enough.

I hope you felt like i was there for you. I would taken a bullet for you. I would let myself die if i meant you stayed alive and happy. I hope you're not miserable right how as i am, even though i doubt you're sad about at all. I was getting better, you were helping me, thank you i was feeling happy again, something i hadn't felt in years.

I could see you started to get agitated with me. I'm sorry, i'm so annoying i just felt like a child again. I was getting excited over the little things. You told me i was fine, every time i asked you if i truly was bugging you at that time, i didn't realize you were lying but i know better now.

I started growing up with my happiness. I starting feeling like i should have. You were gone more and more, always with your friend. So i depend on my self, i didn't get to decide that my heart did.

One day i asked one of your friends where you were because i hadn't seen you a while. You used to show up every day, even if all we did was sit in silence, but you hadn't come around in a days. I'm just worried.

Your friend told me you were at your dorm and i told him you didn't answer my call. He offered to help me, he walked me to your dorm. He had a key i didn't had a key.

"please understand, please let me explain" you screamed at me while i was busy trying to fight away from you. Your friend called a taxi and threw the key at you. Understanding how broken i was that time. You hurt me, we left together. I never looked back. I couldn't face you, but at the same time i didn't want to see you sad. How stupid i am.

I fell asleep and when i woke up everything was dark again. The only light i saw was from the headlight and lamp posts. All the happiness that had built up had dropped in a second.

Your friend, he stayed strong because he want to help me. I remember you being my light.

Your friend saved me from pain. That tiny speck of darkness i saw no matter how bright you lit everything up. He flicked it away for a second

He took care of me. We help each other to get healthy. Sometimes the person you'd take a bullet for is behind the trigger i will always be grateful that you were there, i would never wish anything besides happiness. This is my goodbye, find you true light because I've found mine and i'm happy to have him.

x The end x