The Weird Wacky Random stuff that goes on in my Head!!

WARNING: Extremely Sentimental Chapter Ahead

Hey guys

So I'm sorry I've been off for a while...about a week maybe??

But it's just that stress has been killing me a lot these days and it's just really hard to handle.

Also 

ughhhh

I thought I had gotten SO OVER this, but i'm back to page one of this weird wacky random story where I still got affected by what my classmates or "friends" or whatevers did. 

Like, what happened is that there's this b-day party that's gonna happen

and some of my friends are gonna be there (I think that this time they're actual real friends, I hope, they're one grade below me but still they're amazing :D) so I decided I want to go.

Anyways, there's this chat where everybody who is invited talks about the details of the party and also just fun random stuff.

So today I asked how formal is the "dress code" and one of the b-day guys was like omg we've said that a million times and idk, haha, I kinda forgot by now

But anyways, I think he got pissed and so he took me out of the chat. So then I asked one of my friends who was still in the chat to ask if they could put me back in, and when she asked, she sent me some screenshots of what they had answered

SOOOO

Apparently

You remember little Ms. K??

The one I TOLD you was my "one true friend" 

WELL

AHHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHHAHAHA

HA.

HA.

HAHAHAHA.

HAHAHAHHAA-NO

So the screenshot of the chat looked kinda like this:

[B-day guy removed Mei]

B-day guy: I hope that made everyone's day

A (I've made a reference to her before i think): hahahahaha

[ummm i think there's something in the middle here but i don't want to go check rn, i'm just typing what I remember XD]

J(my friend): Why did you take Mei out?

K: bc she's annoying <<<<<<<<<<<<<<THANK YOU. .THANK YOU VERY VERY MUCH

K: Can she see what we say if she's someday added again?

A (or maybe someone else idk): No

and then they took J out... :/

And I felt super guilty bc maybe they knew that I asked her to ask about me and got kicked out bc of me

ANYWAYS

Now I'm feeling so disgusted with myself because I thought I was over this.

And also because it's so fricking stupid that I have to rant on this and gossip about stuff that happens..

Like i can literally see the people at school reading this and I can literally see their reactions just being like "wtf that no life, like why even?" in a tone of disgust

I myself am disgusted with what i'm doing because i thought I WAS OVER IT.

BUT I'M NOT

and i'm so fcking frustrated at myself that I actually spent about 10 minutes of my night crying about it (although, also because my parents were talking something bad about my attitude downstairs and I could hear everything...)

Anyways

I need to leave right now because I shoudl be doing math

thanks for letting me rant

although you're not really LETTING me, I'm just typing on this website and for some reason you're still here

so if you;re still here

thanks