Against Me

Part 1

Song is Give Me Love by Ed Sheeran 

The boy you punched in the hall today. Committed suicide a few minutes ago

Thwack. I take the punch that comes at me. I always do. Everybody thinks it's weird but what am I going to do? I can't fight and besides I'm used to it. This bullying has been happening for years. This isn't the first time I've been punched and picked on by someone. I craned my neck up wanting to find out who just hit me this time. I don't need to though because I can hear the sound of Tavion laughing. Ah, my least favorite person on the planet. That freaking asshat. I swear he is the main reason I choose to cut myself. Just a few more hours, the thought rang in my head.

I stand trying to walk away but he yells out "Hey!" I act like they are talking to someone else. I really don't want to do this today. "Paper! You know I'm talking to you, came back here." My hand goes to my arm when I hear that name. They found out that I cut and now they call me 'paper.'

I don't think they understood what those words did to me. I turned around my hands trembling, "What do you want?"

Tavion had a sickening smile on his face, he let out a small chuckle, "You actually think we'd let you get away with just one punch?"

My eyes widen slowly backing away until I felt and felt the familiar pain of my back hitting the lockers. "Please leave me alone, I'll do anything you want, just please. I know you don't like me and I'm sorry, I feel bad about it but please just don't hurt me."

Tavion walked towards me tilting his head to the side, "You know what you can do?" I looked at him, desperation in my eyes, "You can kill yourself, we'd sure be happy without you here." He pulled me forwards and then slammed me back into the lockers, "I'm sure your family would agree too." He does it one more time before walking away. I look around, at all the people just standing there. They could have done something but no because he is popular. They never have and they aren't going to.

I push off the lockers and quickly walk away. I don't want them to see me cry, so once I'm out of most people line of sight I take off. I quickly run to the tree that is behind the music rooms. There is enough shade there no one sees me making it so I can hide and be alone but I can still hear the music. I like coming when the Orchestra is playing, their music has so much emotion that it calms me down.

When I reach the tree, I quietly slide into a sitting position. I bury my head into my knees and the tears just roll down my face. Jeez I feel so pathetic, what kind of guy cry's at this stuff. It's like the dam just broke for me though. I pull my sketch pad along with my pencils to distract myself. I try to just draw the tree line but I can't help what I start to draw.

It's a kid on the ground surrounded by people. The kid was me a year ago, on the ground as Tavion kicked me. I was new in the school and didn't know much. I tried to ask him a question, but he just mocked me. I didn't get it at first cause I was kind of oblivious but then he pushed me. It started little,he pushed me down and called me names. Then later he started to kick me because I tried to fight back. I knew it was stupid but back than I didn't take things laying down.

When I moved here I wanted to be stronger, you know not be the kid everybody picked on. The kids at my old school bullied like name calling and stuff but it was way worse here. I wanted to finally stand up for myself. But then when I did, I got beat to a bloody pulp. I didn't know what to do, so I kind of just stayed there. I didn't want to move but when they all left me, laying there I had to get up. Right after I did though I started to cough up blood. I went to the hospital where I found out that I had internal bleeding along with three broken ribs.

It was one of my worst memories. I add it to the rest of my drawings that are filling up a folder in my bag. I'm pushing the folder when my best and only friend, James runs up. He launches at me wrapping me in a hug. I'm surprised so I don't react but he doesn't give me a chance to.