We had been traveling for days on a cruise. I woke up one morning. I was startled by a red flashing light and an eardrum bursting alarm. The "sinking" signal bright red above the bedroom door. I looked next to me on the bed. You weren't there. I grabbed my phone and flashlight and ran like hell. You had told me you were going to the 6:00 breakfast for the early risers on the front deck. I looked outside the closest window to me as I ran down the hall with 50 other people. The front deck had been the fist part of the boat to hit so I made my way there, to see if you were somewhere along there trying to get off the boat. I kept calling your phone. no answer, "call cannot go through." Where were you. We had been best friends since 4th grade. I saw out your differences, you canceled out my imperfections. We worked well together. You were always by my side. I loved you. I told you everyday, and you told me. We just said it playfully though, even thought I really did love you. But at this moment you were gone. I felt my eyes water up. I looked all over for you. I could keep looking for you, or get on the last boat to come pick people up until another came in 30 minutes. Of course I stayed. I looked for you everywhere. Searching the whole boat. I made my way out onto the front deck. called your phone again, you had a water-proof case on. So I saw your phone flashing in the water. A few feet away there was an arm sticking out of the water.. then a hand. I couldn't reach the hand from just standing on the deck, it was too far away. No one was helping me get to the hand, so I jumped in. I grabbed the cold hand. So cold. Shivers were sent down my spine as I felt for a pulse. There was a faint one. Not much of it left. I pulled the rest of the body up onto the deck. It was you. Big drops of hot tears came rushing down my face as I sobbed and yelled for someone to help. No one was there. I started compressions. I put my lips onto yours. So cold. I've wanted to do this for so long, not thinking our lips would meet like this. Pushing off then pushing hard on your chest. I stopped. No one was around. It was just you and me. I've never seen you like this. You were so cold. Everyone else waiting for a boat, or trying to get a signal on their phones. I laid there, next to you, holding you hand. I cried hard sobs. Filling my lungs with tears. I didn't want to live without you. I screamed "WHY WOULD YOU LET THIS HAPPEN! IVE DONE NOTHING TO DESERVE THIS! PLEASE LET MY LOVE LIVE" the heart was still beating. No signs of him away though. Pressed my lips down again with hard blows and then back to the chest keeping in thought that it could be the last time I was with you. I was so scared. How could I carry on without you? My breaths got heavy even thinking of what it would be like. I felt my vision become blurry. I fell to the ground. I couldn't feel anything. All I could feel was that your hand still touching mine, holding on. Next I felt a squeeze, then blacked out.
*pound, pound* "COME ON! STAY WITH ME!" I had my hearing again, then my feeling, I felt cold lips against mine. I was waking up. I could hear and feel everything. The pain in my chest. Your lips on mine. Your hand squeezing mind. You stopped. You had given up. Your voice yelling "STAY WITH ME!" You became quiet then laid your head on my chest. Then you started to sing quietly, "when the sun shines we shine together" you started to cry. I wanted to say something to you, but I couldn't. I squeaked out "I told you i'd be here forever... Forever.." A long moment of silence. You looked down at me "till death do us part? Never." A tear feel onto my face from yours. You said "I love you." Then I squeezed you hand. Now that's all I really remember.
Now a days I walk thought an empty green forest all alone. I wonder what it would be like if I had you by my side. The thing about you and me is that till death do us part meant nothing. Death was just the beginning for us. Yet I still do wonder what would have happened if I had lived.
