Goddamn it! You're so fucking weak! I think as my eyesight begins to blur, what was that? I thought I saw something but it's not there anymore, oh well. What should I do? I look to the board, they're doing coding. Maybe I should do that too. I go to the website and attempt to focus, something in the back of my head keeps pulling me to something else.I need help, but who's gonna help me? I lay my head down and try to sleep, only to be woken up a mere minute later by Drane. Fucking fine, I'll just draw. I get out my notebook and decide to just space out with my music, whenever I come back to earth I see a kinda creepy looking demon glaring sadistically at me from the paper. I quickly close my notebook, scared that if I stare at any longer it would jump out of the cell that it was confined in. I look anxiously to the clock, 12:28, almost time to go. I pause my music, close my laptop, shove it in my bag along with my headphones and notebook. Maybe I should burn it, that might be a good idea. I race out the door and collide perfectly with Tyler, our hands lock as we head to the doors. Thank God he didn't have to go to Votech today, he is like a drug. My mind goes literally insane without him, after only a few minutes without him, I begin seeing random colors along with my own heartbeat. I hate when that happens.
"Lexie!" I jump. He must've been talking.
"Sorry, were you saying something?"
He looks at me, his eyes filled with concern. "N-no." Yes.
"What were you saying? Tell me." I demanded, I then remembered the time he had told me I had been controlling lately. "If you want to," I cower behind my words. I've been trying to monitor how controlling I am, but it doesn't seem to work. I walk at a quick pace, but my shoulders sunken. I feel a shiver run down my spine, Why am I always so cold? I ask myself, I ask myself a lot of things, always expecting an answer. I think the day I finally get an answer, I'll be horrified.
"It's nothing, Babygirl." He says with a smile on his face, I know I'm gonna be thinking about that all fucking day. We quickly make our way to the bus, as soon as we sit down I feel drained of all energy. This happens so often I've started to accept it as normal, but I knew it wasn't normal. "Are you okay, Babygirl?"
"Huh? Oh, yeah." I breathe. I listened to the conversation Tyler was having with the others on the bus, I'm just gonna watch Supernatural when I get home, I can't do anything right so I might as well. I try to withdraw but Tyler notices me curled up in the corner and he pulls me close to him, God fucking dammit! why won't he ever just let me be depressed in peace? Thank God he did this. Will you please just make up your damn mind? I snuggle into him for the rest of the bus ride, fading in and out of reality. I pay enough attention to know when I get off and that's it, I quickly give Tyler a kiss then quickly get off the bus. I watch my feet as I walk home, the rocks below me blur as if I were running. I open the door to my house to find nobody was home, we had food though so Dad must have gone to Walmart. I go to my room and climb onto my bunk, I grab my phone and put on some Supernatural. After five minutes I no longer want to watch Supernatural but have no clue as to what I want to do so I continue watching for a while. When I finally check the clock I close the window and talk to Tyler.
L- Hey baby
T-Hey babygirl
L-Wutcha doin
T- Nm
T- Im binging
Binging? Oh he means bingeing, lol he's a stupe but I love him.
L- Lol same
L- I'm bored af though
God why am I so tired? My eyes begin to flutter, I quickly managed to send a message telling him I was going to sleep before I was enveloped into the darkness.
"Hello there, Pet." a voice said with a snake-like wisp. I slowly turn my head to see a girl with dishwater blonde hair, and eyes as blue as icebergs. They were so- cold and lifeless. Her appearance made her seem harmless and comforting, but her voice was demonic, and foreboding. "Didn't I warn you when you were young?"
"Y-yes."
"And what was it that I had said?"
"Y-you said "-b-be careful or I would see you ag-gain.""
"And I see you didn't take my words into consideration, looks like we'll have to do something about that." I watch her fade into the darkness around me. I quickly sit up in the waking world to find myself surrounded by copies of my drawing. I let out a scream and they all disappeared. Looking around to be sure, I notice the had had been turned off and my lamp had been turned on, I quickly grab my phone to check the time, 12:06. Wow. I see that Tyler was unusually still online.
T- Hey babygirl what happend
L- Wut do you mean??
T- You haven't been on since I started watching my show
L- Oh yeah sorry I fell asleep
T- It was only 4:00 and you had so much energy today
L- Ik, I guess it just hit me when I got in my bed
T- Alright babygirl
T-I'm gonna go bed now, I was just waiting to see you online before I went to sleep. I love you babygirl.
L- I love you too daddy, sleep well sweetheart I'll txt u in the morning
I then decided to get up and make myself something to eat, considering there was no way in Hell I was going to sleep after that.
